So... I just had a thought that.. those who suffer from OCD... Their brains are hard wired differently... And it is possible to go back to normal.. but what if... The anxiety I feel is not because of that.. but because of how I was raised... Like I'm afraid I just might be gay... And I'm afraid of never being loved by anyone... Not because of OCD.. but because of my childhood... I have all these mental rituals and instrusive thoughts that match.. but.. what if it's not OCD.. what if it's just me.. that thought is so fkn scaryy.. but what do you guys think..?
Hi..so idk if it's HOCD.. but..I'm sorry I'm here to vent again... But umm.. I'd stopped watching anything...and then started slowly... Of course loss of attraction..and then I'd cringe at female bodies before any thoughts or groinal responses would happen... And then..one day I saw this male dancer solo performance... and I just thought if he had rounded hips instead of the boxy male one, he'd be more attractive... and then now..I was just wondering why I thought that if he had rounded hips it would be more attractive..