23 May 2016 - 13:42
Hi, so I have this hallucinations or voices when I am about to fall asleep or practically asleep, they are kinda of dreams, sometimes I hear voices or see colored shapes or as if I am in a situation with someone, hearing my mom's voice, sister, brother, sometimes someone shouting but they don't happen when I am awake, they happen in the state between sleep and wakefulness but I have them every night, I think I have had them my whole life but I have never paid attention to them, sometimes I get confused when I wake up from dreams, there was this dream where I was telling my aunt about a movie I have watched and then the movie started to play in the dream when I woke up I was confused ' did I really watch this movie? ' I know I didn't, it was just a dream but why be confused about dreams, I have also experienced extential OCD and suffered from very strange OCD thoughts, crazy thoughts but I didn't believe them but I was discussing with them, telling them that they are not real but they were very crazy and when I think about it, I get scared of what if they were the symptoms of schizophrenia or other serious mental illness but I think they were because I was in the middle of my OCD anxiety, I am afraid because my mental health issues are increasing over the years, it started with hypochondria, now it became OCD. What if in the end I turn into schizophrenic, I have no family history of schizophrenia what so ever, can my anxiety turn schizophrenia, this thing started when my OCD started, sometimes I remember telling something to someone or doing something but it's not real, like I know I didn't do this thing but I still get confused, those things happen in my dreams and hypnagogic hallucinations but why get confused about them, what if I get crazy and confuse reality with dreams, can someone please help, I am terrified!!