So a little bit of backstory. I am a college student (M, 22) who is in a fraternity. I had many addictive issues (denied that they were issues at the time) involving a variety of drugs as well as addiction to porn and masturbation, and had a complete nervous breakdown one day. Began by questioning how I had become so negative and and inappropriate in my behavior for so long, going back to my teenage days in high school. I felt like I was always a very nice and harmless kid, and that there was no reason for me to have turned into this kind of monster that I perceived that I was.