OCD Action

Hi Bubbles. Sorry again about the delay in my reply. I am having a lot of problems with my internet connection. Thankyou so much for your kind words. My form of OCD is mainly intrusive thoughts, which are extremley distressing and have always ruled my life. At times its unbearable. It mostly thoughts about harm coming to loved ones and if I don’t carry out certain rituals, something terrible will happen and it will be my fault. I am constantley on edge and in my own head I am trying to keep people safe. I also check things over and over again and have to do a post mortem on conversations I have with people for fear that in some way I might have upset them without me realising it. I am just coming to the end of CBT therapy, which is the best thing I have ever done. I have 2 follow up sessions left. but I must admit I am petrified as to how I cope when they stop. I have been on Sertaline 200 mg for a while but I don’t find them that helpful. Having said that I might be a lot worse if i wasn’t on them. I hope you are OK and thankyou for your concern. Speak soon Bubbles. Chloe X

Hi Bubbles, I have answered your wire but I think I sent it to myself. If you go on my wire you will see it. As you can probably tell computers are not my strong point! Hope you are OK. I totally relate to what you have written below. My mind is like a mine field, I have to tread very carefully otherwise it feels like my head will explode. The slightest thing can send the OCD spiralling out of control. You are so lucky to have the support of your family. I wish you well and hopefully speak soon. Chloe X

Hi, has been a few weeks and things have been ok. It’s funny how sometimes the OCD can change it’s form to fit different situations. Like when I start something new it affects me when meeting new people, I feel like they know my mind and what is whirring around inside it. Even though things have been ok I always know the OCD lurks in the background like a big dark shadow. The other day I yelled at it in my head to go away because for the first time I felt angry at it, and it was like having a full on battle. And that sums my experience up, a battle to live a normal life. I wonder if it really ever go’s away, even if there are methods of dealing with it? I just know that I will never accept it as a friend because of the way it imposes itself on me. A friend told me that it feeds on your fears, but I shall continue to fight this bugger to the end! Feel free to drop a wire, as I am really a cool person

Hello I totally relate what you said below I didn’t lke the ssri’s the doctor prescribed I wanted to eat everything! Today is a hard day I was just congratulating myself yesterday for feeling better then BAM out of the blue it’s so hard and everytime I talk about it to people they don’t understand

The thing about my OCD is that you can have days when it lurks quietly in the background, and then all of a sudden it will hit you ten fold in a snap of a moment. When it happens it is hard to focus on what is happening around you, I become stuck thinking of the things I have done and if I am okay. Lots of times I have to talk to my family for the OCD to retreat into the background again. I have counting rituals and if something is not in the right place I have to make it right for me to feel okay. I don’t know what sparked the OCD, god knows but I am fighting it and one day would like to become comfortable. I really don’t think there is enough awareness or is given the same respect as other illnesses. There is not really a lot of help out there but for medications which made me dull and put on weight. So I really think there should be more help. Take care