OCD Action

Nigel
Member

Hi all,

All of a sudden I've realised how much my life's changed lately. My OCD is really bad lately. I had OCD before but I didn't recognise it and now imagining me a few months ago is bliss but being the so called then non OCD me is another thing!

I'm really trying to be strong but it's so difficult! I went to work today and I knew i didn't have a coat but I noted it down incase I worried later whether I had one or not! Last week I didn't need to do this but now I can't concentrate if I don't!

I came home from work today and was going to vote. I was asked to drop a container off at my brothers. It was in a plastic bag and because the bag wasn't tied up I had to handle it carfully incase a dropped something into it. I ended up handing it over without the bag but I didn't want to go into the house. I went in and when I handed the container over I realised I couldn't handle not checking underneath! My mind was racinf trying to think of a excuse to check it. I offered to put it in the fridge and checked it underneath.

As I walked out I didn't look back into the living room as I walked into the hall. After It was bugging me that I didn't check although I knew I only had my keys on me. I went to vote and there I kept checking around me. I had a bank card on me when I went there as I took it in my car as ID. But when I got home I couldn't resist analysing the situation and doubting I had two items on me.

How can people not check behind them; how is it people can be normal; why do we with OCD manafacture false memories through doubt?

Nigel!

Thu May 6 2010 19:30:16 #
CHILLYGIRL
Member

Hi I do not know if you want the answers to the question below or are just saying in general but I think the same how can people not feel dirt on themselves, how can they touch things in their home with dirty hands, how can they walk around barefoot. All of it frustrates me

Thu May 6 2010 19:47:41 #
poppyfields
Member

I'm with you on that one Chillygirl - the dirt thing eeeeurgh how can they!!

Thu May 6 2010 20:03:50 #
CHILLYGIRL
Member

Just got reminded of something when growing up my gransha always goes on about how a sneeze can stay in air for ages and my uncle would always say make sure you cut and wash your nails or you will get gangreen and they will fall off. that could be another sign of how I ended up with ocd now I think about it

Thu May 6 2010 23:55:47 #
TL
Member

It is very hard to imagine not being afraid to handle anything of my own after touching the computers at school or not being afraid that I'll get robbed if I don't check the locks.

Fri May 7 2010 0:05:14 #
thelazypick
Member

hi nigel,

yes, i miss those days when i had no ocd and could do things normally, more efficiently.

i hate it when i have the urge to 'ocd', but need to complete the task asap. it's frustrating when i have to constantly come up with excuses to 'ocd'.

but i think it'd be easier to stop a new ritual once you think you're gonna start it. like the other time i had this crazy thought about breathing twice everytime, i have an obsession with even numbers, and i realise how crazy and tiring and how i might die from suffocating and all so i stopped.

and to all,

i cannot stand doorknobs, really. i think they're so dirty they should make automatic doors everywhere.

Fri May 7 2010 2:48:55 #