OCD Action

Seandy
Member

http://ehealthforum.com/health/bad-thoughts-during-masturbation-t173761.html

Read this. And read the first reply; which was from a long time member of this forum.

This put the fear of hell in me when I read the reply, as he said "Where the mind/heart lead the body will follow" - My mind is there, but my heart certainly is not.

I have these thoughts, And I have reactions down there sometimes - one time a proper one, but I've found a reasonable explanation with that and it did not fit the idea of wanting to abuse someone.

It's hard for me to say these things as I know that I am NOT and NEVER will be a paedo, abuser or anything of the sort. I have a conscience. But just like Gigolo has said himself, When he ceases his depression, he feels he'll become this paedophile to children. I feel the same, I feel as though I've become increasingly apathetic to my own thoughts, But i still worry; I guess it's become the norm almost.

The links purpose was to ask a question, if someone who can influence the persons thoughts and feelings and actions of themselves first and foremostlt, posting on a forum with help and aid of UPMOST importance. Is he right? Am I the thing i don't want to be? Or is it my OCD.

One thing; to clarify this is OCD, isn't it? I have these thoughts, and then I'll check down there to see if anyhings happened. I'll think of something I enjoy and then see if its taken the bait, And then I'll force these negative thoughts into my head, And try and keep them there, and see what happens. within a few seconds it starts to go back to its normal size again usually with the bad thoughts, which leads me to the conclusion that I don't like the thoughts, even though i get that "tingly" feeling which appears to be related to that "groinal reaction" thing

Please don't tell me this is a flawed test. because it's the only thing I've got ot go on phyisically as proof that I'm not this thing.

I have an amazing supportive Boyfriend, who knows the ins and outs of this. I've got a great opportunity with schooling, And this is ruining my life. I'm scared to get proffesional help due to misconceptions and people not knowing about this branch of OCD.

I did a talk in college about this. I said it's a fairly unkown branch of OCD and needs to be recognised because it can CRIPPLE peoples lives. I've never publicly spoken before but I did it and i got right into it.

I know this post is all over the place. But all I'm asking for is a reply with some meaning and a reply not to me, but to the idea's of the post replyer in the link I've provided.

I'm sorry to say this, as it might come with some negativity. But this rapes the mind. And it changes lives and ruins people. It's not just a mental health problem. It's a disability. Depression is classifies as a Disability. Agorophobia is classified as a disability. This problem can lead to Anxiety, Depression; Anything.

I'm quite disgusted that it's not put out there in both the education of Psychology and with everyday perception of OCD.

Sorry for the rant and perhaps one sided opinions.

You're all amazing for supporting one another and you have my thanks again for the help, not just for me but to each other.

Sean.

Sun May 30 2010 0:10:11 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Sean,

You're right in saying that this is a fairly unknown branch of OCD and until I joined this forum last year I hadn't heard of it. but I've followed a lot of the threads about it on here and would like to think that I now have a better understanding of it and other forms of OCD.

With regards to that post on the link you gave (I went to the site despite my OCD saying what if you get a computer virus - daft aren't I?) and have only two words to say about the post - FEAR and IGNORANCE!

The internet is a wonderful invention giving us instant access to all sorts of information, but for every piece on a given subject on the web that's correct there are many more that are incorrect. So for a subject like OCD it's best to stick to sites such as this that understand OCD.

Remember even a lot of health professionals aren't clued up on OCD full stop let alone the lesser known types. That's why it's important for each of us to support charities such as this one to help them to spread the word about what OCD and it's many aspects and to help remove the fear and stigma associated with OCD. So well done for giving the talk in college.

Where the mind/heart lead the body will follow
A statement that is flawed in so many ways that I'd ignore it and treat it with the contempt that it deserves.

Is he right? Am I the thing i don't want to be? Or is it my OCD.

You answered that question - he's not right he's just helping to spread fear and ignorance on a subject about which he obviously knows very little.

Sorry if this doesn't make a lot of sense but my body has woken and brain is lagging behind this morning

Trudy

Sun May 30 2010 9:47:37 #
Jerama
Member

I broadly agree with Truddles. I think post referred to on the other forum just shows the lack of understanding and the ignorance about this dreadful condition. Of course, if you have those thoughts you will carry them out so you should be locked up to protect the public. And everyone with OCD should just pull their socks up.

We do have a long way to go. More Power to OCD Action to tell the truth to the world and to try to do something positive.

Jerama

Sun May 30 2010 19:39:53 #
Seandy
Member

Jerama. Your post confused me some what, you said that the post in the link was ignorant and out of touch but you then said

Of course, if you have those thoughts you will carry them out so you should be locked up to protect the public.

Does this mean you agree? Or am i misreading it?

Sun May 30 2010 20:17:44 #
Jerama
Member

Sorry Seandy, I see my post could be misinterpreted. I was just amazed at the ignorance of the poster and being sarcastic when I said the bit you have quoted and it was a poor attempt at humour. That said, and the pulling the socks up bit, is typical of how so many people see OCD.

Jerama

Sun May 30 2010 21:39:13 #
Seandy
Member

Ah thanks Jerama. I literally questioned myself when i read that,

It's just I'm at the point where I'm not sure if i am this thing or not, But If i was I'd have had these thoughts and feelings BEFORE the incident that triggered this happened, am I right?

Sun May 30 2010 21:59:09 #