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ally82
Member

I want to find out what it is that draws me into my thoughts where I'm committing wickard acts so much they seem real. Can anyone please help me?

Thu Sep 1 2011 17:23:47 #
Ratwomble
Member

Ally

It is your OCD that draws you in. The wicked acts that almost seem real are how it makes you doubt yourself.

Meds and therapy can help you, but it can take a few goes to find the right ones.

Good luck

David

Thu Sep 1 2011 21:31:00 #
Cuthbert ffoliott
Moderator

Hi Ally82 -

the word 'seem' is pivotal. That shows that you are well aware that your 'acts' are fantasy. Nevertheless, the thoughts are so vivid that they are a great burden to you, and that is painful.

I would say this: in OCD types such as yours, there is at first a template, a foundation, a basis, as yet undefined. This basis can be defined by intense feelings of guilt, and very often it is also characterized by a 'need to confess'.

Then, a person tends to 'sow seeds', to 'grow plants' in that basis, by taking in fantasies that he/she knows are bad, looked down upon, vilified by society. In that way, the guilt and the urge to confess get a face, become recognizable, and thus form even more of a plague.

I take it that that is what David calls: 'your OCD that draws you in'.

It is almost as if you turn yourself into a criminal in your own mind, and that is one of the many awful faces of OCD - you are NOT a criminal.

I must add that nothing of the above is done in free will; only film actors do it that way. You are obliged to do it, by the disorder.

I agree with David: the right combination of medication and therapy can be very helpful to combat this stupid and unwanted state of things.

In this, I wish you all the very best, hang on in there!

Bye from Cuthbert in Holland.

Fri Sep 2 2011 9:04:16 #
ally82
Member

Thank you for the helpful respones.

Fri Sep 2 2011 9:37:44 #
Cuthbert ffoliott
Moderator

Ally82 -

what interests me: in how far do you keep your thoughts, and your shame and pain about them, to yourself? Is it a sort of mental torture that you go through all alone?

If so, then I think: they're not kept in check by others, and can get horribly inflated, become an insurmountable obstacle.

Suppose you would be with a couple of persons you really trust. Would you then be able to quickly expose such a train of thought to the others? And to tell about your feelings?

Don't feel obliged to answer. It's just an idea that I pondered - from experience I know that having to go such a road all alone can be extremely vexing, and also a cause for endless 'cycling' of the same mental pictures and feelings of guilt.

Best, Cuthbert.

Fri Sep 2 2011 9:51:40 #
Faith
Member

I completely agree with Cuthbert, telling a trusted person your thoughts helps so so much. My Mum is that person for me, she has heard some weird stuff i can tell you! But because she understands why im thinking these things she doesnt condem me or think im evil like im thinking about myself. Its very difficult to talk yourself out of things in your mind as your OCD will always keep coming back at you with bad thoughts and feeling of guilt. But someone else can give you that reasurrence that you need. Good luck with you thoughts and other OCD related issues, keep smiling

Fri Sep 9 2011 7:20:22 #