OCD Action

swan
Member

Hi,
I feel pretty bad that im always writing threads about how low i feel and depressed am. I ALWAYS DOUBT THAT THEIR is anything wrong with me.

Mon May 31 2010 0:12:32 #
Rena32
Member

Hi Swan, you should not feel bad, this forum is here for you to post your feelings and gain support from others. You have given support to so many on the forum and your posts in response to others are great. I am sorry you are feeling depressed, please cheer up and I hope you feel better soon!

Mon May 31 2010 4:20:32 #
poppyfields
Member

Hi Swan i know what you mean and feel that i'm always moaning - even in my own head!! i also completely understand the 'always doubt that there is anything wrong with me' part, as i do too and my stupid ocd has me thinking i'm just a prat of a person who is making excuses for her own bad behaviour. I'm sure it's the way the ocd messes with your thinking and is not easy to live with but you are not alone in feeling this way and this is exactly the right place to come and have a moan and let it out, as we all do understand..........hope you feel a bit brighter soon. Pops

Mon May 31 2010 7:59:54 #
swan
Member

Thanks for your replies so i dont feel im the only person experiencing this.
Im supposed to be going out with my parents for lunch but dont feel able to as my brother in law is ill and i dont feel i can support my parents i have no energy left. My parents see me as the strong one, they know i have OCD but it means nothing to them. That makes me sound so selfish.
Teresa

Mon May 31 2010 9:17:53 #
trish
Member

hi swan i was thinking the very same thing the other day that i do more moaning and complaining on here than actually putting up more positive stuff ur not alone there but as the others have said were all here 2 support each other hope ur feeling better
trish

Mon May 31 2010 9:34:02 #
Truddles
Member

Hi swan,

Don't be so hard on yourself, you've had a rough few months and it's not surprising that you feel so low

If you can't express those feelings on the forum where else can you? That's what we here for to help and support each other. Like most people on the forum you haven't just written threads about how depressed you are you've helped a lot of people with the replies you've posted.

I know what it's like with families they expect you to be the strong one and yet aren't willing to support us when we need help. I know of at least six others on the forum in the same boat It's not selfish we all need to feel appreciated and supported by those we love.

I hope you feel better soon. PM me if you need to talk.

To everyone,

Never be afraid to post on the forum when you need help as there's always someone that will be able to reply and support you. That's what we're here for, to see each other through not only the good times but also the bad times.

I'm proud of the way people on this forum help and support each other.

Mon May 31 2010 11:03:26 #
Unregistered

Teresa, I have lots to say to you, but no time right now. I feel very much as you do. Neither of us is being selfish!! This illness takes so much out of us, but those around us usually have no idea because they can't see or feel our pain.
Tricia x

Mon May 31 2010 13:32:44 #
Unregistered

You are all amazing on this forum. Having such difficult times yourselves but you all give encouraging words to help each other.

Mon May 31 2010 14:59:32 #
Unregistered

Dear Teresa, I still feel angry with myself for that thread I wrote on the old forum. I know it upset you at the time and it was totally thoughtless of me not to realize that by criticizing my response to my OCD I was also appearing to criticize others. The whole thread was wrong. It was triggered by my reading about the plight of a very young woman with a newborn baby who had discovered she had advanced breast cancer. I fell into the trap that those around us fall into and it was very wrong of me. Having a dear friend who suffered so badly with his OCD, stating that his cancer was easy to deal with by comparison also, unforgivably, slipped my mind.

I don’t know how you manage, to be honest. You cope with your job, your OCD, depression and other health problems, despite a lack of empathy from many around you. As others have said, this forum should be a place where we can let it all out. Sometimes I think even here we feel guilty for telling it as it is, and let’s be honest, it’s a living hell. We have to put on an act for those around us, but here we should be able to express how badly we are feeling.

Again, Teresa, I apologize for my thoughtless thread, I know you accepted my apology at the time, but it still worries me that I wrote the things I did.

For goodness’ sake, share it all with us.

Tricia x

P.S. How is your diet these days? You mentioned a lack of energy and I'm the same. I have made a real effort with my diet the last two weeks and I think there's a slight improvement.

Wed Jun 2 2010 14:19:32 #
Unregistered

Lil, please come back!

Wed Jun 2 2010 14:20:09 #
swan
Member

Tricia i dont remember the incident you write about so please dont worry about it. I think we all get upset by things people say.
thankyou for your support. I sometimes really think im a total fraud and that their is nothing wrong with me.
Teresa

Wed Jun 2 2010 17:08:26 #
Unregistered

Teresa, I think there are two things going on with many of us. We are suffering from the doubting disease and would probably at times question whether there is anything wrong with us, even without input from those around us. However, those around us, I believe, play an even greater role, in almost brainwashing us at times. A close friend, meaning well, recently stated there’s absolutely nothing wrong with me. She said I had been led to believe from a young age that I have a psychiatric problem. She went on to blame my psychiatrists for convincing me I have this condition called OCD. I felt mixed emotions after hearing all this. I was pleased she viewed me as completely ‘normal’ and yet hurt that she didn’t consider my suffering or even the condition itself to be real.

We can be so tough on ourselves and overly critical. Of course, many of us have families and friends who are also critical. No wonder we sometimes question whether we are frauds. Trust me, Teresa, you are not!

Tricia x

Thu Jun 3 2010 11:52:02 #