OCD Action

megz150
Member

Hi, i'm new to this forum. I'm 21 and have had ocd for 6 years now. Im in the process of really trying to understand my ocd but im finding that im now obsession about doing therapy correctly. Has anyone else had this and can give some good advise.

I struggle a great deal about harm coming to myself and am used to obsessively checking my mind for answers and ruminating. Sometimes it feels so much like I literally caant stop ruminating and that when I try, I still cant help but get flashes of events and memories that are my current obsessions

Often at work, I'll be so tired and the maximum stress levels that sometimes I'll dismiss things on that basis-that im so completely worn out, is this bad?

Do u believe that to some degree, it is a case of no-one can possibly dwell over and sort out all their 'wrong doings'-such as conversations, things they've done, things they've said, bcos this prevents ppl from having a normal life? I always believe i'm letting go of real things, that i should be sorting out and mending/confronting but instead I let it go. is this wrong? this is being irresponsible?

Mon Jun 20 2011 15:54:39 #
Tess
Member

Hi megz
Welcome to the forum. No, I don't think you're being irresponsible, if anything you are being overly responsible. If you are tired and stressed to the eyeballs you have to dismiss things or you would blow a fuse and most people wouldn't think twice about doing it in those circumstances.
I don't think it is possible for anyone to go back over and over past conversations obsessing about what they said or didn't say without it intruding into their life in a negative way, but of course this is what OCD does to us.
I think you need to work on your self esteem because therapy is a two way process and I get the impression you are trying too hard to be perfect. Your therapist is human too and can only advise what he or she thinks you should be doing, you are both trying to unravel the obsessions, you are not sitting an exam. As long as you feel you are progressing I don't think it really matters how correctly you do your homework, it is up to you to test your own boundaries and stretch them and to learn how far you can push yourself. You may even feel you can do more than you have been asked to do.

Mon Jun 20 2011 17:25:39 #
bunnymad
Member

HI and welcome to the Forum. I have had ocd for nearly a year and it feels like a blooming lifetime.

I can totally relate to you on this on because i myself am a total perfectionist with quite a lot of things. I am always worrying about have i said this or that right at work and at home, i ruminate over past conversations, events and ordinary things that i have done in the day. Its exhausting. It often leave me with very little energy to do things that i want to with my family, and when tired or stressed that makes me much worse.

I at the moment seem to be obsessed over the way i feel. Like generally my feelings and that i should be feeling this, or i shouldnt be feeling that. Its so complex sometimes what goes on mi my head that i dont know wether i am coming or going.

I agree with Tess, as i know i do this all the time, You are being if anything too responsible with issues. therapy is hard work, and it takes a lot of effort. I have had cbt and it did help me greatly but i found it hard at first to have to talk about stuff that to everyone else may seem trivial.

Please feel free to PM at anytime. i am here for you to bend an ear.

Hugs Laura

Thu Jun 23 2011 13:23:01 #
Ratwomble
Member

Hi megz,

Welcome to the forum. I know what you mean about perfecionism and interventionism. I always feel That if there is a "situation" I want to intervene and do something about it. This is not always the best course of action.

OCD is a lot like perfectionism, but taken to extremes. It's a bit like paranoia too.

Best wishes

David

Thu Jun 23 2011 14:47:28 #