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Hi All

I don't continually post on here, but do find it helpful for support and reassurance.

I have now had sexually intrusive thoughts for over 6 months, I spend my days just feeling out of touch with the world and I don't have enough strength to say this is just OCD and let the thoughts slide.

I now seem to be apathetic towards the thoughts, but this builds up and at random points I just want to cry.

My confusion comes from not experiencing the physical effects of anxiety anymore, I seem to jst have what feels like a cloudy head and an although I know the thoughts are wrong, they confuse me and just seem like they should be there.

Does anyone else experience this, after 6 months the nhs are finally seeing me to discuss cbt and I'm worried I'm gonna splurt everything out and say the wrong things

Wed Jun 30 2010 9:14:20 #
Wombat140
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It's very common with intrusive thoughts. At some point your brain can just no longer be bothered to go into screaming hysterics every time the thoughts appear, and gives up trying to take any notice of them. It's possibly a good sign, since ignoring them is what you're supposed to do.

I'm a bit puzzled that you say you "don't have enough strength to let the thoughts slide", but also that you're "apathetic towards them". If you aren't getting anxious about them, but you aren't ignoring them, then how are you reacting? I daresay I've misunderstood what you said, but I'd be glad if you'd explain.

Congratulations on finally getting an appointment. If you're worried about explaining things, I should write down a list of the points you want to make and take it with you. That way you won't miss anything vital.

All the best,
Wombat140

Wed Jun 30 2010 17:42:54 #
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Hi Wombat

Many thanks for replying,

I'm sorry, when I explain things, it's easy to over complicate.

What I guess I was trying to explain was that, I have convinced myself I am a deviant and although I know it does bother me in the long term, I am apathetic to thoughts as they come. I guess I just have not got the foresight to say its ocd, as seemingly with ocd it seems easier to except the most negative

I hope that makes sense, when I first got the thoughts I felt nervous and could feel the adrenalin rushing through my system, which really would scare me.

Wed Jun 30 2010 17:54:57 #
Wombat140
Member

Oh, I see. You still believe the thoughts to some extent, but that no longer makes you physically nervous. Again, it makes sense. You can't go on indefinitely being scared by a thought every time it occurs to you, even if you still hate the idea as much as ever. Just exhaustion. It does not mean you're getting to like the idea, or anything like that. (I've come across other people who noticed the same thing in different circumstances - that's how I know). Anyway, must be off.

Wed Jun 30 2010 20:17:10 #
DazzMcGuinness
Member

Hi guys - first time I've been on the forums. I'm not someone with OCD, but I am studying Journalism and I can see that this is a serious issue that is getting completely misreported for the most part, or at least many of the more serious symptoms are being overlooked for the sake of the quirky stuff, or the 'accessible' case studies (just like this one: Link removed. Link gave this message "The page you were looking for cannot be found or it has expired". It then re-directed to inappropriate material. Caps, Keymaster

'McGuinness

Tue Jan 4 2011 11:10:44 #
Tess
Member

Hi Daz
Tried to look at the link but it said the page has expired but the site is pretty revolting and not one which I personally would want to have anything to do with. OCD is a very distressing condition which affects the kindest and most sensitive people in society and anyone who seeks to trivialise or make fun of it is at best stupid and at worst despicable.
As for "case studies" I find the term "accessible" disturbing. We are human beings and we choose whether to keep our personal experiences of OCD private or whether to expose them to the media and thence to public scrutiny and we all have our own reasons for the choices we make. There is a huge need to educate the public about OCD and to change attitudes and misconceptions and the media can play a very important role in this but it must be taken seriously if it is to help reduce suffering.

Tue Jan 4 2011 12:04:04 #
Wombat140
Member

Dunno. Site hijacked? Site bought out? Simple bungle by the owners? You always have to remember that large parts of the Net are like the Wild West still, and anything can happen.

Wed Jan 5 2011 18:32:21 #
vmb
Member

Hi, I have not been on here for ages but I completely understand ur situation I have a similar reaction to my intrusive thoughts. I think overtime, the anxiety becomes less on account of becoming used to the thoughts. However,it does seem clear that the thoughts are bringing on negative emotions as ur crying due to the confusion.

I just started cbt with the nhs yesterday and I was worried the therapist would not understand due to the sexual content in my thoughts. I just explained it; they did understand. Be sure to request a therapist who is trained to deal with OCD thinking.

If u need to chat more about this let me know, talking about these thoughts takes a hell of a lot of courage, just remember u aint alone in this and u aint a deviant....good luck

Sat Jan 8 2011 9:36:27 #
Pinklady
Member

I there
I to have recently been diagnosed with OCD and have just started to see a therapist for cbt. I think I have made a improvement in the 6 weeks I have been going or so my therapist says I have but it does not always seem like I am. Iam one of these persons who wants everything to be fixed in one day which is hard when you have OCD most days it's like I can never see a light at the end of the tunnel.

I like you have been having sexual intrusive thoughts four about four months now which is the worst kind of intrusive thought I have yet especially as most of the content of them about my child which totally sickens me and disgusts me. When these thoughts first came to mind a couldn't stop crying for weeks eat or sleep and couldn't understand why me I kept telling myself I new these thoughts where not real and would never happen I was even starting to have (false memories my mind) showing me a image that had not even happened. After having these kind of intrusive thoughts I was so upset I went to se my gp who reffered me to cbt therapy and but on medication. I to like you worried telling my therapist the content of the intrusive thoughts incase I was judged but was totally not like that she even showed me case studies and I was amazed at how many people had these thoughts s try and not worry they deal with this kind of thing everyday.
I understand that what your saying that you don't always seem to get the anxiety side anymorei don't get it as much now and when I am not thinking about these thoughts I think why am I not thinking why am I not bothered at this moment of time then start I start thinking of them again. I think the medication plays apart now most days I don't seem to be able to get really excited about something but don't hit rock bottom now although the thoughts are still there and very distressing. I hope the cbt works for u and any time u want to chat pm me

Sun Jan 9 2011 23:58:44 #