OCD Action

Nigel
Member

Hi all! Hope you are having a good day!

I suffer from checking OCD with the majority of it being worry over losing things!

I fear going to peoples houses incase I leave something. This has stopped me from being my social self. Having not been to a particular house for a while I felt the pressure to go today as they thought I was not being sociable.

Although over the past week I was doing a lot better with less checking I felt to go to this house it had to be military precision. I checked what I had on me and wrote a list. I got my friend to check and he also wrote a list. Now I'm back home I have all the items on the list. However while I was there I was struggling to glance to check where I had been sat. In order to do it I had to step back into the room. When I did I had to stand near the fireplace for a while. when i walked away and turned back there was nothing on the floor but I couldnt see under someones feet so I had to look back when they moved. I thought i saw a flash of white on the carpet however it could have been imagery. Have you ever seen something when you have checked and when you check again it was just the light and then you see something so you check again and this carries on while there is nothing there? Well it's bugging me now.

I have got everything on the list. I think it was me seeing things but the thing that brings my OCD back is the thought of not asking someone to check due to fighting OCD and then losing something precious.

I've already made them think I'm strange by asking questions before. Asking questions sometimes makes me feel back to sqaaure one but that speck of lite is giving me doubt and anxiety.

Do you think i was seeing things or do i need to check?

What do i do please help?

Thanks

Nigel

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:23:52 #
jo
Member

Hi
Leave it. you have everything on your list, therefore it is just the ocd making you doubt. As you said in your post the more you give into it the worse it gets. i know its hard and will make you anxious initially, but its the only way to beat it.
best wishes
jo

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:50:35 #
Nigel
Member

Hi Jo, thank you for your quick reply!

Just a quick question, have you ever come across the vision thing when you think you saw something but when you check its not there and its just the light playing tricks but if you dont check the more you think about it the more you think it was real?

It's driving me nuts.

Thanks again.

Nigel

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:52:59 #
jo
Member

sorry that sounded rather abrupt
can you distract yourself with something to try and lesson the thoughts a bit? I am trying to find an activity that does the same at the moment, used to do painting with numbers as not v.artistic and mind numbing but there hard to get hold of now. crosswords also help. meditation (guided) v.good if you can keep still long enough

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:55:09 #
jo
Member

yes i have, the mind will play all kinds of tricks when you have ocd, but the reality is that you have everything on your list and therefore cannoy have left anything behind

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:57:24 #
Nigel
Member

Hi Jo,

It's okay i didnt take it as abrupt! i will try to distract myself but it driving me nuts.

I hate this stupid OCD.

Regards

Nigel

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:57:36 #
Nigel
Member

thanks jo i wish i could see ocd and would beat it to a pulp!

Sun Jan 9 2011 16:58:47 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Nigel,

Long time no hear

I personally have now found that making a list of what I take with me actually perpetuates my OCD instilling in me a sense of not being able to trust myself. So I abandoned the list and initially only took the bare essentials with me gradually taking more out with me as I have progressed (well I am a woman and we do tend to end up carrying everything bar the kitchen sink in our handbags )

Sun Jan 9 2011 17:23:45 #
jo
Member

Thats a good plan Trudy, and something to add to your achievement list n'est pas?

Sun Jan 9 2011 17:25:34 #
Nigel
Member

Hi Trudy good to hear from you, hope you are well!

I long for the time i can be like that again; i remember a few years ago having my pockets full, a watch on my hand, a ring on my finger; running about being cheeky etc etc and now i hardly take anything, even list what im wearing and darent move.

i cant imagine not making a list but your right because i doubt myself but im now doubting the list too.

i dont understand why i think i saw something and now its like the thing i remember is bigger.

i can give others advice but i cant convince myself its driving me crazy!

Please give me strength

Nigel

Sun Jan 9 2011 17:32:50 #
Truddles
Member

Well it took me long enough to realise it
Thanks I am working on my list of achievements again

Sun Jan 9 2011 17:32:50 #
Truddles
Member

our posts crossed.

Yes I began to doubt the lists too hence I stopped making the lists.

I can give others advice but i cant convince myself

That's what I told one of my Consultants and he told me everyone has that problem. It's always easier to solve a problem if it's not you're problem as your not emotionally involved.

Sun Jan 9 2011 17:39:46 #