OCD Action

CoolPeas
Member

I am 14 years old and was diagnosed with OCD when I was 9. My OCD was terrible when I was between the ages of 12-13, I went through anorexia. I was afraid of eating sugary foods, because of feeling scared that I would be ill. I recovered from this when I was 13. After therapy sessions my OCD got a bit better. Since about Christmas it has got a lot worse with constant worrying. I have emetophobia, which means I am afraid of vomit and illnesses. I am scared things will happen if I dont do a ritual like counting in my head or touching. I always have to pick up things with my left side, walk up the stairs with my left foot.

ive got to the point where i dont know what to do anymore. everyone gets annoyed with me at my problem, its stopping me going out with friends, and going out for meals. I have panic attacks and 'think' that i feel ill. every morning i'll wake up and 'think' that something is wrong with me, a tummy ache, thinking that i feel sick when really I dont, thinking i cant breathe properly, then it'll bother me for the rest of the day.Please comment, as I dont know what to do anymore. x

Tue Aug 23 2011 14:30:50 #
Truddles
Member

Hi CoolPeas,

Welcome to the forum

I presume that your therapy has finished given what you say, but that you are still under the care of CAMHS and so have a psychiatrist. If so I think that you need to get in contact with them and explain how bad you’re feeling at the moment. If you don’t have a psychiatrist then you need to see your GP and ask to be referred back to one.

It’s not nice when the OCD starts to stop us enjoying life, but with help you will be able to get back to doing the things that you want to do.

Do you have some one that you can confide in and explain how you’re feeling? It helps if you’ve got someone to talk to.

This book might help both you and your family to overcome your OCD and so improve your quality of life.
Breaking Free from OCD: A CBT guide for young people and their families by Jo Derisley

It’s called a CBT Guide for Young People and Their Families and is aimed at younger people and their parents or carers. It’s well presented and is by no means boring and explains things simply but in depth and contains plenty of work sheets for you to work through. It explains CBT and how to do it – a lot better than some of the books for adults.

At the end of each chapter there is information for the parent or carer giving them advice on how to help the young person with OCD. This book might help your family to understand what you’re going through and more importantly how they can work with you to help you overcome this.

This is a friendly forum and we always try to help and support each other. It can stop you feeling so isolated and give you people to talk to that can understand what you're going through. You don't have to go through this alone.

Best wishes
Trudy

Tue Aug 23 2011 17:58:30 #
Tee
Member

Aww, your OCD sounds really bad. I also suffer from emetophobia and my OCD is quite different to yours. I fear that everyone in my house and everything they touch is contaminated, which has made me room-bound, I can't eat their food, I can't go downstairs and I am constantly cleaning with disinfectant. Anyway, back to your problem, I can relate to it and I know it can often feel like there's just no point in living anymore and I often feel like this also. The only advice I can think of is to remain positive, keep focusing on your future career and GCSE'S etc, but you can always mail me if you would like to talk. x

Sun Jan 29 2012 12:10:06 #
slogsweep
Member

Hello Coolpeas,

I had problems brought on by what I now know was OCD that spawned into eating disorders between the ages of 15-17 with a brief episode when I was nearly 19. I don't really have the confidence to talk of this time publically but if you drop me a message I'll try my best to offer something helpful.

Even if you don't I can really relate to your pain. Well done for being braver than me and getting help now! I waited until I was 21, the biggest regret of my life thus far.

This "thinking that something is wrong" is how I think. I'm getting CBT at the moment which is really, really helping. I hope if you're seeking therapy that you find it as useful.

My heart goes out to you, both with shared pain and admiration of your bravery to acknowledge the condition at such a young age. You sound just like me. I'm absolutely sure that you are a kind, sensitive person who certainly does not deserve to live in fear and I wish you all the very best for your recovery,

Slog

Sun Jan 29 2012 23:18:57 #