If you have a weird turn on, nothing terrible but you find something quite normal for an adult to do arousing (not massively but on a small level) and a child did it, and you found it arousing, not the child but what they were doing, is that the same as being aroused by the child? As an example lets use spanking, so a person likes being spanked, and a child hits them on the bum and they liked it, the brain was focusing on the turn on and not who was causing it, would that mean they had been turned on by the child?
As far as I can remember this hasn’t happened to me, but I worry that maybe somewhere in the past it has and I have felt aroused and I can’t remember and if I have I am a terrible person.
As my intrusive thoughts center around being some sort of pervert it is causing me to question everything I have ever said/done/thought sexually, pull it apart and worry about it.
Up until now I haven't really thought of myself as weird or immoral sexually but maybe because I didn't think of myself as weird I didn't give it any importance and that's why I don't remember??
Thanks in advance.