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blueboy
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i am desperately trying to suppress my main obsession of having killed someone... i dopnt know what to do...and then the problems where i am living increase... really think i am losing my mind..

Wed Aug 17 2011 11:25:32 #
BT
Member

Really sorry to hear this, Blueboy. I do know that trying to suppress an intrusive thought will make it stronger. Try to ignore it. I do realise how distressing it is, but that is the best way. I've just realised you mentioned drinking again, that will also make things worse and you shouldn't be mixing it with your medication.

Wed Aug 17 2011 11:35:37 #
BT
Member

Just realised that my ‘try to ignore it’ remark mind sound rather flippant. I suffer intrusive thoughts and do appreciate the suffering; they are a living hell, it’s just that everything I have read and everyone I know has said that trying to suppress a thought (any thought) will make it stronger. I know leaving it there goes against our natural instinct, but it truly is the only way. Don’t push it away, it will attack stronger, don’t analyse, for OCD will put up a better argument. Just ‘let it be’. You haven’t been on the medication long have you? It can take three months to work. You need to take it regularly, and cut right down on alcohol.

Wed Aug 17 2011 12:40:09 #
blueboy
Member

thanks bt...not been on it long... but... my God... still suffering...i cant cope... but i dont want to go in a hospitol.... whats the point? they just fill you up with babble and drugs... never been in one, but can imagine... ocd has no cure... i wish i was dead

Wed Aug 17 2011 12:54:39 #
OCDLONELY
Member

I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad mate. I know when these thoughts get into your head you can't just ignore them even though that may be the way to defeat them. What help are you getting? You say you want to be in hospital surely if you're so ill you want that they would see and offer you more support? But then I just got forgotten in the system several times and for years at a time so its not suprising. I really hope your meds kick in soon and you can always talk to us if you need a friend. Take care

Wed Aug 17 2011 12:59:47 #
BT
Member

So very sorry it's this bad, Blueboy. I have also wished I were dead in the past when the thoughts wouldn't let up. Hang in there because the medication may start to take effect - it can be a truly wonderful feeling when it does. There are also other things to try. Are you seeing a psychiatrist? If not, I would ask for a referral, because you need help.

Hope you are OK, Daniel, I know how worried you are at the moment.

xx

Wed Aug 17 2011 14:23:06 #
BT
Member

P.S. I think my choice of word 'ignore' was wrong. I mean don't engage with them. By questioning and engaging they become incredibly powerful. I find keeping busy is the only way when they are very bad.

Wed Aug 17 2011 14:26:38 #
blueboy
Member

thanks so much bt and daniel...just been out viewing a house...and want it... now have to find out if all comes together...it is supposed to be 3 bedroom... but one room is a tiny box room.... and my stonham worker is trying to see if housing benefit will allow me it.... i find it just right for me... but..i dont know where the powers that be... will permit me the right enviroment..

Wed Aug 17 2011 16:06:21 #
blueboy
Member

i decided to stop drinking.... not buy any anymore.... as sticking to rules doesnt work for me...when i have it in the house.... i dont feel ill or have sore head ...or lose control...only feel dehydrated...so not going to buy more.hope i can keep to that ..

Thu Aug 18 2011 13:42:05 #
aishah
Member

Hi Blueboy,

Sorry you're still suffering. I hope you do manage to stop drinking because it's only making your situation worse and good luck with the house, I think a change of environment will lift your spirits.

Regards
Bridget

Thu Aug 18 2011 17:46:23 #