Not really sure how this works or if anyone actually uses this forum, but I'm desperate so here we go.
I've suffered from OCD for about 9 years and was diagnosed about 4 years ago. I see a phyciatrist who does CBT with me and have been on fluoxetine and am now on sertraline. When I was on fluox I became much much better and began to lead an OCD free life. But as with everything there's always something to set you back. My Gran died of cancer and everything went awol for me. My OCD is based around protecting my family - my mum, dad, brother, horse and dog mainly. I used to be a really loud happy person, but now I am so nervous, I barely ever leave the house anymore. I just feel totally prisoner to my mind
I used to hurt myself, but not anymore, I just cry allllllllll the time. I'm taking my GCSE's this year and I go to a high acheiving private school, so the pressure is massive. I have barely been in school this term and I'm way behind, my parents don't understand and end up shouting saying I'm going to end up being a street cleaner. Basically walls falling in on me here
Would appreciate anyone to talk to or anything really, I've never really talked about this to anyone before let alone strangers, so bare with me.
Just thought it would be nice to feel I'm not alone.
xx
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