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aishah
Member

Hi everyone, I hope you are all managing to stay warm. Does anyone else have problems with muddled thoughts? I suffer with episodes of intrusive thoughts but at other times my thoughts are so muddled up. Its as if my brain can't get them in order. Also at other times I cant concentrate or remember what I'm supposed to be doing.
This has been going on forever and I have just got used to it but at the same time has led me to suffer from frequent bouts of depression.

Regards
Bridget

Thu Jan 7 2010 14:14:33 #
Unregistered

Hi Bridget

Yes I do get them too - especially if there is any noise. I have to turn it off as I cannot hear myself think. I also try to have two thoughts at once which makes it even more muddly.

I haven't found the answer yet - but as I know it is part of OCD I try not to worry too much.

I expect other forum members have similar experience of this.

I would think that meditation or relaxation would help - but this is something that does not come easily to me. If you can do either I would give them a try to some nice soft classical music.
Annex

Thu Jan 7 2010 15:04:12 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Bridget,

No I'm cold as even with the heating on full blast 24/7 I still can't get the flat up to temperature. But I'll survive in spite of them rather than because of them (the professionals and the Housing association).

My thoughts are muddled and I thought that it was a sign of my age I now realise that it is because of my OCD and my depression and not my age.
I'm a great one for making lists (I always have been) and find that it helps provided that I can remember where I put the list
I find that, apart from when my seizures are bad, I'm at my most confused and muddled when the intrusive thoughts are prolific. I'm now learning to go with it and to not fight the confusion as it just makes me have even more of the intrusive thoughts.

This is partly why at the moment I spend so much time on the forum as I find that concentrating on the forum keeps some of the intrusive thoughts at bay. I sometimes find that it takes me ages to type a post, but gradually I'm improving my concentration.
I know that it means that I can't get on with other things, but if I can use it to keep the thoughts under control then gradually I will have more time for other things.

I hope that this helps.

Best wishes
Truddles

Thu Jan 7 2010 15:10:53 #
aishah
Member

Thanks Anne and Trudy, I know I wouldn't be alone in this. I had to give up a college course last year because I couldnt retain anything and couldn't keep up with the teacher. She wasn't good at explaining things(other students said)
but it was made worse by my muddled head.

I once tried to explain to someone what it's like to have OCD, I said it is like having a radio on in your head, sometimes itds loud and sometimes its quiet, at other times you can't get reception and its all fuzzy.

I feel that OCD has taken away my life bit by bit over the years.

Best Wishes
Bridget

Thu Jan 7 2010 15:31:27 #
Unregistered

Hi Bridget

Shame about the course - what was it in?

It was probably because she was not a good teacher. Some of the lecturers I had were far better than others. Some went so fast nobody could keep up - let alone me. Because of my unreadable writing I never could take notes anyway. When I asked my favourite lecturer, he said: 'we are only here to inspire - you do not need to take notes.'. I read the handouts we were given after the lectures and did all my essays from books. This way I did not have to reatin information in the same ways that the youngsters do.

Once you get more control of your OCD you will be much, much, more confident. I feel sure of this. So don't give up. There is plenty of time to fulfil your ambitions.
Annexx

Thu Jan 7 2010 15:46:52 #
aishah
Member

Hi Anne, I've done 3 years in City and Guilds Soft Furnishings and was in the middle of the last year when \i just couldn't keep up.

I know it's early days yet and I was in a crisis for a few weeks, the last few days the thoughts have lessened but now I feel depressed and muddled and unable to function properly.

I admire you so much for getting degrees and coping at the same time with OCD.
What subjects did you do?

Bridget
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Thu Jan 7 2010 19:48:35 #