OCD Action

bunnymad
Member

Not been on for a while, seemed to be going ok but i am having a bit of a down fall at the moment.

Not sure what to do and need some advice from anyone who has been in a dilemma. I have been on my medication for nine months now. I am on Clomipramine 75mg. I felt great at first, noticed a really big difference in my ocd, the symptoms really lessened and felt much more calm and relaxed about life in general. But gradually over the last three months i have been suffereing with more anxiety attacks, feeling quite down, and my head is in a mess again at the moment, i am unsure what to do.

Dont know wether to go to the doctors and need my medication upping or tweeking, or wether its all in my head and i should just wait it out.

The biggest problem for me at the moment is i am feeling quite hopeless about stuff, depressed, not as bad as i did before.

I must let you know though that i have a lot going on at the moment, my grandad is slowly dying, my mum has got no job now to care for him, my mum and dad might be getting divorced, and i am having to support my mum a lot, and i work for my local council and with all these government cut backs my job is uncertain, future isnt secure. Plus i am also having trouble with a collegue at work, she is being increasingly hard work, making stuff difficult and being nasty and awkward.

Feel like i cant cope with anything or anymore than i am.

Feel weak, like a wimp

Sun Jul 24 2011 10:09:45 #
Tess
Member

Hi Bunnymad
It's not surprising you're feeling low with all the stressful things going on in your life. I'm not a fan of upping meds when you've reached stability but you have so many worries at present that I think it would be sensible to go and have a chat with your GP. I have upped my meds in the past during difficult times and come back down to a maintenance dose when things settled down again. As for your colleague at work I'm wondering if she is also suffering from stress about job uncertainty and taking it out on you. Is there anyone at work you can discuss the problems with? If not keep a private diary of the difficulties she is creating, you may never need to use it but it will help you to write things down and it just might be useful in the future if jobs are at stake.

Sun Jul 24 2011 10:39:47 #
bunnymad
Member

Thanks tess. I know thats what i have been thinking about, dont want to up my meds since i have been on this dosage for months, feel like i am giving in and not trying to withstand the pressure and stress.

Should i just stick it out and stay on this dosage of my meds?

As regards to this woman at work, when i came of maternity leave last year, she was great, lovely as usual, but then when i fell ill with ocd, anxiety andpanic attacks, i had three months off work, and she soon changed her tune.

She is one of these people that if you had had your leg amputated then she would expect you to come in work, there is no excuse for being of sick and she is not understanding of mental illness at all and is very unempathetic.

My mangager is aware of what things have been going on and at the moment i am not prepared to take it any further. I just hate mondays cause i have to work with her and she is such a cow.

Thanks for the advice though. anyone else on clomipramine, that after a few months noticed any changes to there mood/obsessive thoughts. Mine seem to be a lot more of them, and i am really struggling with anxiety levels and lots of feelings of panic.

Sun Jul 24 2011 15:34:49 #
aishah
Member

Hi Bunnymad,

Sorry things are rough for you at the moment. I have been on Clomipromine before about 18 mths ago, I was on 250mgs but unfortunately it didn't help me as I had nearly all the side effects and had to come off it.

I am at present taking Olanzapine and Escitalopram and Diazepam as and when needed. I often have to up my medication when things get worse and drop back down when my symptoms improve.

It would be a good idea to see your G.P. or mental health team to discuss this option as you do seem to need some extra help right now as there is so much going on for you.

I hope things improve for you soon.

Regards
Bridget

Sun Jul 24 2011 16:24:59 #
Ratwomble
Member

Bunny,

See your gp. Even if you stick on dose and med it won't hurt

Hugs

David

Sun Jul 24 2011 20:57:20 #
Allison
Member

For the last 11 months I too have had a lot of family problems and my depression and ocd has shot through the roof. I took clomipramine for 5 month but had really bad side effects so went back on to proazac.I also have been given diazapan as some days I really feel so ill and need that little something extra to take the edge of it.Tomorrow I have also got a session with a counsellor as I live in Durham and there is a scheme for metal health patients called 'Talking Changes'.Is there anything like that in your area as sometimes we have so many horrible things going on in our lives that we need to come to terms with and need help in dealing with. Like the others I think you should visit GP.
Take Care and donot feel guilty if you temporarily have to up your medication.

Sun Jul 24 2011 22:59:55 #
blueboy
Member

i am on that scheme too in Durham

Mon Jul 25 2011 0:09:02 #
Allison
Member

Had my first session this morning.Very emotionally draining as life has been very difficult and I know that this has led to my depression and my ocd. Some of us are born with a sensitive nature and take things very personally, thats bad enough but when you feel life has been cruel to you it really is devasting and makes you wonder how many times you can pick myself up. I think and hope by talking about whats happened can only help and enable me to deal with future problems differently as at the minute I let everything get me down.

Blueboy - how are you finding the scheme? I found it possitive hope you have too.

Mon Jul 25 2011 14:53:07 #