OCD Action

billboard
Member

hello i am 18 years old and i got diagnosed with ocd. It makes me so sad that it physically hurts, it makes me so guilty that some nights i dont sleep at all.
But worse of all it makes me lonely.

Thu Apr 15 2010 21:14:28 #
Truddles
Member

Hi billboard,

Welcome to the forum.

I too was really lonely until I joined this forum as OCD can be very isolating, but you don't have to feel alone here. We're all in the same situation with OCD and we do our best to help and support each other.
Please do join in on the forum and keep posting.

Best wishes
Trudy

Thu Apr 15 2010 21:41:16 #
Rena32
Member

Hi Billboard, I know you must be feeling lonely, as us with OCD have at one time or another felt that way, you are not alone in your diagnosis or symptoms, there are kind people here who are willing to listen and make you feel welcome, OCD is not easy, it is a battle, but it is one that we must fight. You should not feel guilty that you have OCD, it is not your fault. Please post again and let us know how you are feeling and if you have any questions we all will be glad to do our best to answer them.

Fri Apr 16 2010 4:23:09 #
swan
Member

hi,
I agree about feeling lonley it is one of the horrible aspects of ocd. Come on the forum when yiu want to people will reply as soon as they can

Fri Apr 16 2010 16:32:10 #
thelazypick
Member

hi billboard, nice to meet you.

i know how it feels to be lonely because of ocd. i felt really lonely too before i joined this forum, because i didn't know who to talk to. do keep posting

Sat Apr 17 2010 6:15:26 #
Drizzles
Member

Welcome around billboard, I know that feeling very well. Sometimes you lay awake at night and kind of blame yourself for having OCD or are desperate about having it. Coming to this forum has helped me a lot, there's so many people who have the same problems and talking with others really helps. So feel free to stop by the forum whenever you have a hard time or feel like it.

Sat Apr 17 2010 8:19:49 #
poppyfields
Member

Hi All. As fellow ocd sufferers, we all understand the loneliness and isolation that this disorder causes. Thank goodness we have this site to come to and be able to pour it out for others who completely understand and who don't judge us or tell us to snap out of it (oh if it were that simple) don't they think we would do it!! I may not often post but i do read and sympathise with everyone and hope we all get comfort and empathy from coming here......Pops

Sat Apr 17 2010 10:32:47 #
swan
Member

Hi,
I just feel the pits today really low and on my own. Its the having to tell people all the time that im fine because thats what they want to hear.

Sat Apr 17 2010 11:32:32 #
poppyfields
Member

Hi Swan, yes it's easier to tell people you're fine than tell them the truth because they just don't get it anyways and how do you explain it, it sounds so lame to my own ears, let alone to those who have no inkling or knowledge. We're all fed up with it and want a magic cure but the reality is that there isn't one (as yet) so let's start saying hey no, i'm not fine i'm having a really difficult day with the ocd and let them think what they want to. At least we will be honest and have got it off our chests. It's what i'm aiming to do at the next query on how I am. Keeping our feelings in and telling others we're ok when we're not, can't be good for us and that in turn will be negative and make us feel even worse. What does everyone else think? Pops

Sat Apr 17 2010 15:26:59 #
swan
Member

Hi,
Be honest i was told that if i kept telling people how i felt then people wouldn't want to know me. But to be honest thats how im left feeling now.
Thanks for your reply poppyfields

Sat Apr 17 2010 16:23:07 #
Truddles
Member

Keeping our feelings in and telling others we're ok when we're not, can't be good for us and that in turn will be negative and make us feel even worse.

I agree with that, I'm sick of smiling and saying I'm ok when I'm not. It makes me feel frustrated. I don't lie about anything else so why should I have to be untruthful when people ask how I am? If they only want to hear when things are alright why do they bother to ask someone that's ill if they don't want an honest answer?

Trudy

Sat Apr 17 2010 16:35:40 #
poppyfields
Member

If people don't want to know you by your'e answering them honestly when they ask how you are - do you really want to know them?? I spent years hiding it, i'm darned if i'm going to carry on doing it at my own detriment. If they go, they go and good riddance is what i say. This is an illness just like any physical illness and we need to stand up for ourselvs. Just my opinion, based on many years of trying to hide this wretched thing i didn't ask for and don't want, how it made me feel and what i've lost because of it........ Pops

Sat Apr 17 2010 16:36:06 #
Joe21Liverpool
Member

Hey Billboard
Try and find people who you trust and speak to them about it. It really helped me. I like my friends to have banter with me about it.
I find that them taking the mick makes it more normal, and helps me accept it more
I sometimes even call myself JoeCD

(cos my names Joe and I have OCD)

Its really that clever

Iv been through stages were iv felt really low and dont sleep just like you.
And theres been points were iv felt so alone.

But to qoute Michael Jackson. You Are Not Alone.

It can be so therapeutic to talk things through with friends.
Im at Uni studying to be a doctor, and at one stage it looked as though i might not be able to carry on.

But with the help of others im back on my Medical course.
Really dont underestimate the power of getting things of your chest.

I have a nice chest, for a man, and so i dont like having things on it.
So i know it may be the same for others.

Feel free to pm me

Mon Apr 19 2010 1:58:41 #
swan
Member

H,
Yesterday thought i'd try out what we had all been saying, i felt i needed to cancel something i said i'd go on. i explained that i couldn't tell from one day to the next how i felt. I was told it would be a really cheerful time, i explianed that i wasn't as easy as that. i also said i would pay for my ticket as i said i would go. I feel so fraustrated.

Mon Apr 19 2010 3:06:54 #
poppyfields
Member

Hi Swan, yes it can be hard coping with ocd and pre booking anything can't it. Must be hard for non ocd'ers to understand and they were probably doing their best to try and talk you into going so that you can enjoy yourself. Will you be losing much money if you don't go? or have you decided that you definately don't want to go because of the pressure it puts on you to have a good ocd day? if the latter, then try and be strong and just say so and cancel your day out. You will feel so much better if you can stand up for yourself. Good luck. Pops

Mon Apr 19 2010 9:04:42 #
Subo
Member

Hi Billborad xxx
Just wanted to say lonliness is the overwhelming feeling that I have too, your post bought tears to my eyes because I can feel your pain. I physically ache inside with the hurt that my ocd brings me. But we are not alone. Its part of the ocd that makes us think we are and gives us these feelings. Just want to echo what everyone else has said - people on here are wonderful, comforting and understanding and Im sure this forum will really help you. I would also suggest you to try and find and ocd action group near you - it may seem like the most scary thing in the world to talk to others in a group, but it really, really helped me, most of all because it showed I was not alone, as for over twenty five years I thought I was.
Lots of love to you hon
xxx

Wed Apr 21 2010 8:31:25 #