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smokey
Member

cant seem to access this site so im trying it out first

Fri Jan 6 2012 16:20:13 #
smokey
Member

Hi I think this is working now. Can anyone help. Is this OCD. Yesterday we had our grandson at our house for the day. He is 2 and ¾ and lovely. My husband was in the shower and I was still in bed. Our grandson was playing on the floor quite happily with some wood, waiting for us both to get ready. Because I know that I am not well again with ocd and dep. Im not sure what I was thinking. It goes something like do I care, in connection with our grandson, perhaps I don’t.. Im not sure of myself as a person or what im thinking or feeling, just not right. Nothing happens. I then wonder perhaps I am not caring enough or perhaps I should not care. Then I talk to him. Then I still have this unsure feeling and thoughts which I don’t know?? Later I ask my husband have I done something wrong or I have not done anything wrong, have I . Then I question is this ocd or something else or am I bad and I cant work my way throught this. Sometimes when I am unwell like this I don’t always have a thought just pop into my head, I don’t think. Sometimes I think I actually think of something on purpose, like testing it out. Does this make sence. Is this OCD. I feel so bad and guilty for being and feeling like this. Also I ask my husband do the thoughts matter etc. but nothing gets me through this. Is this all ocd ?? I am now 60 and have had ocd and dep. Since I was about 11. Last year I was told I do have very bad ocd. Please help is this ALL OCD , Smokey

Fri Jan 6 2012 17:31:40 #
Tess
Member

Hi smokey
Welcome to the forum, I see you love animals and nature and that you do arts and crafts so we share the same interests. As for your question I'm not qualified to say whether it's OCD or not as my OCD symptoms are different but I expect other members will be on this evening who will identify with the thoughts you describe. From what others post it does sound as though a lot of these thoughts could be due to OCD.

Fri Jan 6 2012 18:27:23 #
slogsweep
Member

Hello Smokey, I can relate to feeling guilty and as if you've done something wrong all the time. Today there was a big chip in our new bathtub. I didn't do it, I genuinely didn't, but I still couldn't stop thinking maybe I dropped the shower head or shower gel or cleaned too vigourously or not vigourously enough.

Every spike or struggle with OCD is like this, thinking I've done wrong when I haven't. It's horrible, but it is all OCD.

Hope you're ok

Slog

Fri Jan 6 2012 22:22:55 #
wannabefree
Member

Hi Smokey, welcome to the forums... Yes this certainly could be OCD, a GP will give you the best diagnosis, but it certainly looks like OCD.
Wannabe

Sat Jan 7 2012 22:33:39 #
Mike
Member

Smokey,

Yes, I can (almost) guarantee you that your obsessing, questioning yourself, questioning what kind of person you are, etc., is OCD. Those are hallmark symptoms of OCD. All of that questioning yourself, checking with your husband if you did anything wrong, etc., are compulsions. If you are up for the challenge, try refusing to do any of those things, no matter how anxious it makes you. When you get a thought such as "do I not care about my grandson?", do not try to reassure yourself that you do, or try to get reassurance from others. This will be tough at first, but it will be critical to help you overcome this bout of OCD. There is no reason for you to have to suffer with these thoughts.

Sun Jan 8 2012 20:11:43 #