OCD Action

Ever since I can remember, I've had irrational fears. I'm talking completely
useless fears. Now I can only laugh at them. I mean I think I'm maturing and these fears just start to seem childish at times. Things are going great for the time being. I just want to live my freaking life already! So that's my life goal: Live my life. Not to become a millionaire or cure cancer or become some American with a Russian accent spy no sadly for the latter one though. My goal is to just live. What's the worst that could happen? Your fears could
be a reality? And if so, what happens next?
I've decided not to need an answer for any of those questions. No one knows what's going to happen tomorrow or a eek from now or a year from now or even 10 years from now. No one knows what the outcome is going to be, so why harp on
the unknown? Why try to answer questions no one has an answer to? People without OCD don't know and what are they doing? Living. I'm not denying I have OCD because obviously I do. And I'm not wishing I didn't have it either because God (you may not agree) gave me this for some reason I believe, but I've yet to figure that out and though at times I'm miserable, it's making me a better person. But I see everyone else living life. And yeah, they maybe be
having troubles or maybe living a perfectly boring life or maybe living a spontaneous, adventurous life, either way they are living.
What am I doing exactly? Not living.
Expecting, for some reason, everything to just go away. No one and nothing can help me if I don't let it. It's definitely scary not being able to control our futures or what an outcome to a fear or obsession might be, but I'd rather be scared and happy then sulking and still scared. We can NOT control everything and we've got to learn that.