Hi Actionagainstocd,
Welcome to the forum.
OCD can be a real bully and completely take over our lives.
I too found joining this forum extremely hard but it was the best thing that I could have done. The help and support that I have received from people on this forum has helped me to start dealing with my OCD. It's very brave of you taking the first step and joining this site and you should be proud of it.
You really do need to go to your GP in order to get a diagnosis and then treatment. The treatment of choice at the moment is CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy). Can I suggest that you make a list of all your obsessions and compulsions and a list of any questions that you might have to take with you when you go to the GP as it's so easy to forget things.
If you go to the right hand side of this page and click on the orange box entitled 'It's time to know' it will take you to the online resources centre where you can access and download information on OCD. Perhaps you could show some of the information to your mum, this will help her to understand what OCD is. We all tend to forget that parents aren't psychic (even if they seem to be
) and if we don't tell them what the problem is they can't help can they?
I'm sure that your parents aren't ashamed of you, they're probably confused by your behaviour and don't understand what is happening.
Joining in on the forum will mean that you don't have to go through this alone. We're a friendly forum and do our best to help and support each other.
A lot of members your age tend to join in on the OCD forum as it's a bigger forum and so there's more people to talk to.
Best wishes
Trudy