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just getting some stuff off my chest, i have had probably the worst week for a while.i am terrified i have hiv , i am full of guilt , and keep having panick attacks. on top of this i am slipping into depression and feel like crying.
i wish i could just believe the doctor when he tells me i am not at risk of hiv.one positive is i havent looked up symtoms on the internet this week and i have confided in my dad for the first time.
cheers for the ears

Fri Jan 8 2010 19:00:59 #
Truddles
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Hi Jimmy,

I'm so sorry that you've had a horrible week.

Don't look up symptoms on the internet, unless you are medically trained you can find yourself imagining that you have every disease on the internet (even doctors find themselves falling prey to the 'looking up symptoms syndrome'). Instead keep yourself occupied with other things.

It's great that you've managed to confide in your dad. Confiding in someone helps to allay some of the anxiety.

Use the forum there are now plenty of us using it and so there is usually someone to reply to you. I have found the forum an immense help.

Look forward to hearing from you.

Best wishes

Truddles

Fri Jan 8 2010 19:26:55 #
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Dear Jimmy

I am so sorry too.

As Truddles says don't look up the symptons it will only increase your fear. Try as hard as you can to believe your doctor. He is the expert.

Please keep on using the forum. We are here to help. The winter is a bad time for feeling depressed there is less sunshine and what with all this cold and snow it is not so much fun going out. All of us here have down times which may last for a day or a week or longer. But with CBT,medication or homeopathy and help from friends on this forum, there's every chance that you will start climbing up again very soon.

Best wishes
Anne

Fri Jan 8 2010 20:29:27 #
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thanks you two seem to be a help to everyone one this forum
it is nice to know you are there

Fri Jan 8 2010 22:07:34 #
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Hi Jimmy
Sorry to hear you've had such a lousy week but you have done really well by not going on the internet which would just reinforce your fears and by talking to your dad. Hang on in there because it is normal to feel worse before you start to feel better. Has your doctor prescribed any medication for the depression? If so this take time to get into your system and you will not feel the benefits for a couple of weeks.
You are young and have every chance of knocking the OCD on the head once and for all but it will be very hard to start with. You are doing all the right things and I'm pleased you're getting help from the forum. We all have the same problems and we all inderstand so never feel you're alone.
Thanks for coming back and letting us know how you are, Joyce

Sat Jan 9 2010 11:05:12 #
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hi joyce nice to speak to you.
i am going to the doctors this week,i havent had medication before as i have always managed to get by. but i now realize i need help and dont feel as ashamed to admit it.
thanks jimmy

Sun Jan 10 2010 11:38:23 #
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Hi Jimmy
Good to hear back from you. I feel very positive about your future as you are doing all the right things to get the help you need. Getting past the barrier of shame and embarrassment is one of the biggest hurdles. If your GP prescibes meds you may feel worse for a while as they don't have an immediate effect. We are all individuals and it may take a few weeks to find which is the best treatment for you. But even if you feel really lousy you need to give the meds a couple of weeks before you give up and try something different.
I hope the GP appointment goes well, just be open and honest about how you are feeling and try not to worry about it. Your GP will have had many patients with similar problems and will take you seriously. Joyce

Sun Jan 10 2010 11:53:17 #