OCD Action

Takuma
Member

Hey
I joined this site tonight and I think it's great that people can talk here about OCD troubles. I'm an 18 year old college student that has had these troubles my entire life. When I was younger I had no understanding of OCD and just assumed that I was the only one. It stopped me from doing the things I enjoy, took up so much time and I became quite depressed when I thought of the next day being the same as today.
I remember thinking horrible things would happen each and every time I tried my very best to rebel against my habbits. I knew I was driving my parents insane having to do things each night before I could sleep and even to this day I find myself doing the smallest things again and again. It has held me back my whole life and I haven't once told my parents about it or even a doctor, just friends I can trust that won't think I'm crazy...
I managed to get through so much over the years by finding other things to do instead. I know it's still there and I know it holds me back with this annoying sense of fear. I just want to get through it so I can live a more normal life. Makes me feel so miserable sometimes I don't really know how I'm supposed to keep going.

Mon Nov 16 2009 1:03:38 #
Nimrod
Key Master

Hi Takuma,

Welcome to the forum. I hope you find it helpful and informative. It is always good to have somewhere where you have your say and exchange views with others especially when they understand the troubles that suferers and carers go through.

Best wishes,
Caps

Mon Nov 16 2009 9:36:46 #
Takuma
Member

Thanks, yeah it's great that there is a site and I think it's good that people can get chatting about it. I've read a few other posts and yeah I can relate with quite a few of them. Just the thinking.. gets on my nerve. Constant worrying over things I know I can get through easily, blaming unfortunate events on myself for not doing things a certain way. I find myself becoming very tired and stressed over it all the time. Just wish there was a button to turn it all off.

Mon Nov 16 2009 11:35:11 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Takuma,
Welcome, you're not alone we're all the same boat.
I only joined last week and already I've found a lot of support from people that are going through the same sort of things. It makes it a lot easier to share with people that aren't going to judge you or belittle you.
It saddens me to think that some one with their whole life ahead of them is feeling so sad.
When you're feeling low just log on, don't feel that you have to suffer in silence.
Hope you're enjoying life as a student.
Best wishes
Truddles

Mon Nov 16 2009 21:13:08 #
Takuma
Member

Hey
Thanks Truddles, It's good to know people like you are out there.
Yeah life as a student for me is easy enough, I have very supportive friends and family that still don't realise I have these issues, I chose not to tell most of them.
I just let my mind get the best of me sometimes, over reacting to the smallest things and thinking something bad will happen once I end up being happy.
It's a miserable life style but I plan on beating it for good. I managed to stop alot of my issues through wil power to change when I was younger, but I know their still there, just more of a mental form now rather than actions I would do by hand.
Thanks for the post does mean alot to me.

Tue Nov 17 2009 0:30:59 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Takuma,
I'm pleased to hear that you're wanting to beat it.
Have you ever thought about taking the next step and confiding in your GP or one of the other doctors in the practise and getting them to help. Having accepted that you've got a problem it seems the next logical step. Do you think that you are ready to accept help? I was too proud to ask for help and now I'm in one hell of a mess. I wish that I'd swallowed my pride and asked sooner. You are as entitled as the next person to be happy.
Hope that you don't think that I'm being too forward.
Let me know how you get on.
All the best
Truddles

Tue Nov 17 2009 18:10:09 #
Takuma
Member

Hey again, nah your not being forward its all good.
I think I could accept the help I've just always tried it myself.
Over all though I think I am in a mess already. I've just learnt how to live it like this and never considered a better life style, didn't seem possible. Just so many obsesions in my head I can't stand it. So I should ask for that help, I'm willing to try anything by this point.

Tue Nov 17 2009 19:15:50 #
Truddles
Member

Hi Takuma,
We haven't heard from you for a while and I was worried.
Truddles

Mon Dec 14 2009 17:59:08 #
Takuma
Member

Hey there,
Sorry I've just been abit busy for Christmas lately.
Things are going well at the minute, things have eased up emotionally and I'm in a steady place right now.

Tue Dec 22 2009 3:08:16 #