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OCDLONELY
Member

Hey everyone sorry I haven't been around for a bit but I've been really working on sorting myself out. I have done so much in the last 5 months but just can't appreciate it myself. My family see the difference and my doctor is really happy with me. The thing is that all of this effort and a few experiences gave me a taste of hope which then leads to dreams and I imagine where I could end up and actually picture my life being good but the doubt creeps in or something negative happens and its the end of the world. I can feel really happy for a few minutes then my head goes searching for negatives in any positive and ruins it completely. I just can't stand it anymore. Is all my effort going to waste? Is there any point? Should I just face the fact my life will always be filled with doubts and fears and misery and I will always be alone? If I knew there was a final goal and I could reach it the struggle would be worth is but all I see is darkness and the light is nowehere to be found. Sorry to be so negative. I just feel empty and alone and distant from the world at large.

Mon Feb 22 2010 17:10:11 #
mama
Member

I think it might help to try and stay in the present moment. Notice things around you that you enjoy right at this moment...for instance your favorite warm blanket...perhaps you are eating your favorite food...etc. Anytime you find yourself drifting into the 'what-ifs' of the future or the 'abismal' past...try to focus on the present moment...what is here and now and wonderful. The rest is just worry...worrying never really changes anything anyway right?
So sorry you are having this struggle...hope this helps a bit and hope you get some light soon...
Love,
Andrea

Mon Feb 22 2010 17:43:37 #
Unregistered

Hello, it's good to hear from you, but I'm sorry that you're feeling so low. It is hard to look ahead and believe that you will live a happy and fulfilled life, but like Andrea says, try to focus on positive things in the present for now, find something worth sticking around for. And try to remember that life is never completely rosy all the time, even without OCD, so you will have downs, even if you make a good recovery. The key, I suppose, is to make yourself get through those downs and to trust that they are only temporary. Please stay strong. We are all here for you so keep posting and let us know how you are. Feel free to PM me anytime.

Mon Feb 22 2010 18:11:41 #
aishah
Member

Hi Daniel, Sorry you are feeling like you are. I can totally relate with you at the moment, that is exactly what is happening to me. I am trying really hard at the moment to be positive and I am just taking things as they are at the moment as the thought of the future just frightens me. The doubt and what-ifs really can bring you down and in fact stop us from moving forward.

We don't know what the future holds, we can only hope that we live a reasonably happy and painfree life.
Try to take things one step at a time and try not to think too far ahead.

Take Care
Bridget

Mon Feb 22 2010 18:55:34 #
freddy
Member

Hi,

I'm fairly new to this site but just wanted to say I'm sorry you are feeling so down at present. Your efforts are not going to waste and from what you've written you've done really well so far.

With regards,

Freddy

Mon Feb 22 2010 19:41:41 #
OCDLONELY
Member

Andrea, Helz, Bridget and Freddy thank you so much for your replies. It really is good to hear from people who understand and can relate. I will keep fighting this as I have for several months now but it just seems so unfair that the more effort I put in the more I suffer mentally. Bridget I'm so sorry you are in the same situation as me. I really hope we can break through these dark times! It's good we can come here and have each other. If any of you ever need to talk please message me anytime and thank you Helz for offering me the same as it is very much appreciated. Take care everyone and thank you.

Daniel

Mon Feb 22 2010 22:27:50 #
Unregistered

Good to hear you're going to fight, we're all behind you. All the best.

Mon Feb 22 2010 22:29:11 #
Truddles
Member

Glad to hear that you're not going to give up. I felt like giving up today, but if we do then OCD has won

So let's all with the support of each other keep fighting

Best wishes.

Mon Feb 22 2010 22:59:54 #
DEAD!
Blocked

Hope you're feeling better soon

Good to see you're not going to give up, you've been doing really great.

Tue Feb 23 2010 15:03:06 #
brennie
Member

Daniel you have done so well in the last year, keep up this good work and never ever give in too ocd...your worth a lot more than that,carry on improving Daniel.

love Brennie x

Tue Feb 23 2010 23:16:03 #