OCD Action

leighmcgivern
Member

HI

I have posted before and i can usually manage my ocd well but it was my works christmas party on friday night and even before i went i was worrying that i would be unfaithful to my husband. I had planned not to get drunk so i could remember everything but foolishly i drank far far too much i felt secure being with friends. Im now going through utter hell i have convinced myself that i was unfaithful i keep trying to trace the night back in my mind and get all sorts of thoughts of me being unfaithful coming into my head. I have asked all my frineds (who all know about my ocd) and all of them have assured me that i did nothing wrong. i have told my husband who says he believes i have done nothing wrong and that he knows its just my ocd. But as i cant remember everything and keep thinking that i must have done something and just can not remember. can any one help me my husband is at his wits end x

Sun Dec 12 2010 12:59:16 #
jo
Member

Alcohol can make OCD worse, not sure how it works physically, but also if you have self doubt anyway then your memory is impaired through booze that in itself would probably not help. I don't know anything specific that would help but actually you have answered your own question in your post, the fact is that nothing did happen, the OCD is just tormenting you otherwise. When I get a thought stuck in my head I try and switch it off by distracting myself by doing something that prevents me thinking e.g. listening to music so loud that I can't hear my own thoughts, doing something that requires a lot of concentration so you have to focus your attention solely on that and not on your OCD. It may be that the next couple of days are difficult, but it will subside I suspect and you can chat to us lot cos that always helps me

Sun Dec 12 2010 13:47:15 #
leighmcgivern
Member

thank you Jo

i am going through utter hell just now it comes and goes but the feeling of anxiety is so intense i keep crying and im shaking and i cant eat i just waana curl up and die i really feel that bad x

Sun Dec 12 2010 14:12:43 #
jo
Member

sorry you're feeling so bad. I really don't know what else to suggest but hopefully someone else will. I hope it gets easier x

Sun Dec 12 2010 15:51:41 #
stus
Member

im my experience my ocd gets worse with the morning after drink....

Mon Dec 13 2010 10:05:41 #
Hb
Member

hiya! I know exactly how you feel. I have a fear of alcohol for exactly the same reason. But even without it I am still convinced I have done something bad like unfaithfulness as I am not trusting myself. I am sure you did nothing wrong at all as even with alcohol in the system you still have control over yourself. It is so hard I now but It brilliant that your husband and friends are there to support them. trust them even though its hard.
If you want to chat more about this your more than welcome. hbxxx

Tue Dec 14 2010 21:06:51 #
leighmcgivern
Member

Many Thanks Hb

im starting to get stronger and i know in my heart ive done nothing i think the amount of alcohol i consumed has knocked my body for 6 and couple that with OCD and its like lighting the fuse on a stick of Dynamite in my brain. Thank you for your reply this site has made a massive differance for me personally i think its a god send.

Leigh

Wed Dec 15 2010 9:28:02 #
trish
Member

hi there not been on here in a while due 2 having new baby which has kept me very busy,i was the very same after drinking 2 much,ur mind plays tricks on u does'nt it? i used 2 worry about all sorts cheating on my partner being one so i know exactly how u feel, but eventually i realised id not done anything wrong. i hope u will realise it is jst ocd playing cruel tricks on u plz try not 2 upset yourself 2 the point of not eating i know what its like when something truly upsets u, u cant eat the very thought makes u feel like being sick hope u r feeling a little better 2day take care trish xx

Sat Dec 18 2010 19:39:09 #
leighmcgivern
Member

hi Trish

Congratulations on your new baby I feel so much better thanks I forced myself back to work on Wednesday and that was the best thing i could have done. Not only was i not the gossip of the party i also have some fantastic collegues/friends who have help me tremdously. Infact i feel very lucky to have so many understanding people in my life my Husband being one of them

Hope you are well and have a lovely Christmas X

Leigh

Sun Dec 19 2010 0:10:27 #