OCD Action

vmb
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Is there anyone who suffers obsessive violent or sexual thoughts but does not really perform rituals to counter act symtoms...Or does anyone obsess using religion. If so I think it would be useful to put on this forum to help others.

I suffered obsessive thoughts for ages, still do but cus I did not perform overt rituals my symptoms were over looked by past therapists, and I was never diagnosed or helped. As a result I shyed away from so many things because my thoughts scared me. It was extreamily difficult and scary. I now know that this type of OCD is called Pure 'O'.

Without doing my own research I would still be feeling messed up, guilty and anxious.

I want people who suffer obsessive thoughts of this nature or obsessive impulses to carry out horrible acts to fell reassured and helped by this forum....everyone on this site seems really helpful, so dont be shy, type away!!...thank you

Sun Jan 10 2010 20:46:34 #
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yep

Mon Jan 11 2010 0:57:47 #
vmb
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I really hate them... I began to get osessive violent thoughts about three years ago and thought that I over came them. This year knowing how depressing January can be, was worried it would be myserable again. Anyway for nine months I felt the horrid thoughts were gone and now there back with avengance. Is the winter or obsessiveness?? hope it goes again hate the hot flushes

Wed Jan 13 2010 18:06:05 #
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I get those too, particularly if I'm feeling guilty and ashamed around people. The problem being that you cannot just talk to conventional people as discussing the issues merely makes the problem worse and gives more credence to your OCD. However, then when your trying to overcome the issue, you end up feeling guilty for not talking about your issues. It can sometimes be a vicious circle. Mine are bad. I believe I'm a pedo. I'm implementing CBT. My previous thoughts involved homosexuality, trannsexuality, and serial killing my family. Bad eh?

Wed Jan 13 2010 23:47:31 #
vmb
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Hey I get exactly same shiz, for years I thought I was seriously unwell. I just started CBT last week. I keep getting thoughts of stabbing my other half and all sorts of sexual images that made me think I was that way too. But I spoke to my therapist and he said its all part of the intrusive thoughts.

Your right about discussing it with average people tho I feel like noone will understand. Did you get a chance to look up Pure 'o' in wikipedia, or anywhere on the net really. Its part of OCD where people have intrusive thoughts about hurting people, abusing, and issues with sexuality. Seriously I read it and it really helped me realise its all part of the disorder.

Look it up and talk to ur therapist using CBT I hope it helps; let me know too

Tue Jan 19 2010 14:21:42 #
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Thanks VMB. I'll look into that

You attending the conference in London in February. I am. It makes a change from another miserable day at work, plus I get to ride the train all the way to London. Fun stuff.

Wed Jan 20 2010 0:29:23 #
vmb
Member

not sure when and where; depends on day i've used up all my annual leave days at work....is it all about this stuff

Wed Jan 20 2010 15:44:50 #
aishah
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Hi vmb, I have thoughts of self harm and images and loads of other scary stuff. I have learnt to not clean and order everything around me when I am having a bad time with the OCD. I have been cleaning and ordering for as long as I can remember but now have more time to do other things. I must say I don't like being on my own much due to the intrusive thoughts and am trying to get used to not having the usual cleaning rituals.

I hope this makes sense
Bridget

Wed Jan 20 2010 17:53:18 #
vmb
Member

Yeah its savage aint it, sometimes its easier to keep as busy as humanly possible just to avoid relationships with places and thougths. Are you getting any support, I find CBT helpful but really difficult, its so embarracing talking about disturbing things that go on in the brain...its great you learned to stop perform rituals tho

Wed Jan 27 2010 0:20:10 #
karim
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Hi vmb

Dont know if you'll catch this as you started the topic months ago

I first experienced OCD at the age of around 5 -many of my obsessional thoughts being sexual in nature. Some of the thoughts that crossed my mind as im sure you can imagine terrified me as a young kid and still do now - im in my 20's.

What I can say that i've learnt is that people who have obsessions with thoughts tend to neutralize them or reassure themselves with thinking itself

This means that OCD can become a completely covert disorder for people like us which as you mentioned made it difficult for you

Hope your'e getting better

Thu Mar 18 2010 11:58:58 #