Hi Lindsay. Thanks very much for the reply and your kind words

it is a relief to know that i am not alone. i think it helped a lot when i realised that i could identify the problem that i had and understand it. i think you gain some control over it even by just recognising and understanding your condition. when i first realised what i had i had looked up skin picking on the net and found Fred Penzel's book called 'Obsessive Compsulvie Disorders' on google books. it was incredible to read all of my symtoms in the book, it was a great relief but very hard as well because as im sure you know its something so deep and dark and personal and secret that its very hard to read about your actions in plain terms. still i am very glad to have greater awareness of it, as it makes me beat myself up less about it (well, a bit less!) because i know that im not just being stupid. im sure there's a lot of people suffering who dont realise that what they have is quite a common condition. greater awareness is needed! because i think awareness of OCD generally is quite good, even if people do still trivialise it a lot ("god yeah, ive totally got OCD, ive always got to keep everything tidy!") but the health professional i went to see for example seemed to know a lot about other types of OCD but not CSP at all, she really didnt believe that it was a type of OCD even when i tried to tell her id read it was in Fred P's book!! anyway, i think in the future i will persist at getting help but it is not practical at the moment as i am going abroad for a year in the autumn. thanks for the book recommendations, i will check them out. thanks again for replying, i hope that you are as well as possible!!
Pippy xxx