OCD Action

Maxthedog
Member

This is a page where you can rant, rave or generally complain to you OCD Bully, with moderate language please

Andrew

Tue Apr 19 2011 16:23:25 #
bubbles
Member

don't know what's wrong for sure not been docs but whatever it is i had enough. this is no life

Tue Apr 19 2011 19:33:09 #
Ratwomble
Member

Wiggy, can you get to the docs? What's up?

Pm me if you want

David

Tue Apr 19 2011 20:10:15 #
nettlenoo
Member

id like to be care free and able to enjoy life without the what ifs or whys or whats? to be again the once bubbly loud out going girl i was thats the hard thing to lose. however bad it is it has taught me to value whats good in life and also to be more caring of others feelings. the good bad and the ugly sides of ocd its like a kaleidescope of feelings.

Tue Apr 19 2011 20:23:46 #
bubbles
Member

it may be a bully but it wins every time. what's the point

Tue Apr 19 2011 22:15:58 #
*k
Member

My OCD bully has won for a while now. There are really strong words that I could use, but I will keep them to myself. I am going out tomorrow, or should I say today and I am going to test my bully out and see if it likes that! I can only try.

Wed Apr 20 2011 0:14:38 #
lil B
Member

oh mr.ocd bully why o you do this to me,mr ocd bully you are not apart of me. You were never here before now you've had your time with me it's time to go!!!!no more nasty thoughts, no more intrusive thoughts, no more questioning my brain and me as a character because mr.ocd bully you are the biggest test of all and I will beat you, I will I willl I willlllll...

hahhaha sorry my'n turned my'n into a lil poem:D

Wed Apr 20 2011 1:22:05 #
*k
Member

I tested my OCD bully out and really tried with an exposure, but the OCD bully won!
The only good thing was that my daughter had fun and that put a smile on my face for her, but it was a let down for me. I feel that I cheated the whole day. This OCD has alot to answer for; oh why do you still rule and bully me, I cannot seem to get rid of you. I make small steps forward and then YOU come back in big steps fighting me back again, as always. Why can't you just leave me alone. I am still going to chip away at YOU and in time I hope I can break you down.

Sun Apr 24 2011 22:25:35 #
bubbles
Member

dear my ocd bully. if you don't leave me alone i will probably get the sack. you are a nasty piece of work and i am more than tired of you. why don't you butt out and let me do my job.

Tue Apr 26 2011 12:25:59 #
bubbles
Member

oh god please help. why are you doing this to me. this is worse than tuesday. i can't do this anymore i would rather get the sack. and another thing why do you bully me more just before i go off work for the weekend. i just don't understand. how can i work when i keep throwing food in our waste trolley for the boss to see. really want to swear but i won't

Thu Apr 28 2011 12:20:45 #
Ratwomble
Member

Dear OCD bully,

I think that this week I have managed to put some more distance between us. I know that you are still there, because sometimes I can just hear your voice, when I'm locking up or driving to work, but it is faint now and you have little power over me.

I know that when I am tired, or stressed, or upset you see this, and come looking for me to offer some false comfort. You will encourage me to check that plug one more time to make the anxiety go away and if i listen you will have some fun, but I am strong now, and my friends here can recognise you and when we gather together you can be driven back.

You are a distortion. A monster created from the good side of me caring about others and wanting to protect them from harm. I do not need to lose the good to beat you. I just need to recognise your ugly face and stand up to you when you try to make me do the things that feed you.

I don't miss you.

David

Fri Apr 29 2011 6:16:24 #
*k
Member

Well done Ratwomble, keep being strong, you are doing fantastic. You should be very proud of yourself.

Fri Apr 29 2011 10:52:32 #
*k
Member

To my OCD bully, I had a wobbly moment yesterday, you seemed to weave your ugly way in to a compulsion. I did try and I fought you for 4 hours, somthing that I could not have done a while ago. I still carried out the compulsion, but with delay, I can now see that this is a little chip at breaking You down and I try and carry on so in time I can resist the compulsion altogether.
I want you to get WEAK and for me to get STRONGER!

Fri Apr 29 2011 11:02:52 #
Maxthedog
Member

Well done *k you should be just as proud as Ratwomble. Keep up being so resilient

Fri Apr 29 2011 11:53:27 #