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brennie
Member

Oh my God in all the years that i have suffered with ocd and depression this is the first time that my doctor has called out for the mental health crisis team, for awhile now i have been suffering from severe depression and last Saturday i did something that i never thought possible of me which i know was stupid but at the time it seemed the only way out of this misery so i drank a large amount of gin to give me the courage to take an overdose of diazepam.
I did'nt go through with it because i was gutless, but because the same feelings came back on Wednesday evening i decided to talk to my sister about it, i have opened up to my doctor and he has arranged for the crisis team to come to my home Saturday at 12.30pm.... i am feeling pretty stupid now but still the depression wont leave me, i am at a real low at the moment but i am sure in time it will leave me, i'm not sure what they will suggest but i am hoping that maybe a change of medication might help.

Love and Regards too you All,

love brennie x

Sat Jun 20 2009 3:10:53 #
Arran
Member

Hi Breenie, sorry to hear how extreeme things have got for you recently, I can imagine how you must be feeling as I'm feeling preety desparate myself. I really hope things start to improve for you soon and I hope things go well today.

Regards

Arran x

Sat Jun 20 2009 8:28:29 #
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I'm sending you healing, Bren. Think of D and the boys, they need you.

Sat Jun 20 2009 15:54:04 #
brennie
Member

The crisis support team from my local psyciatric hospital came to see me today, they have requested me to go into hospital for rest until i can cope with the depression / anxiety better than i am right now.
I am not keen on going into hospital so they are coming back to see me tomorrow , i have got some support and that feels nice because i dont have to suffer all these hopeless, helpless feelings alone.

Tricia, thank you for the healing prayers , you are a much nicer person than me

love brennie x

Sat Jun 20 2009 21:06:02 #
swan
Member

Hi,
Take care of yourself sorry you bare feeling so bad.
Teresa

Sun Jun 21 2009 10:43:14 #
brennie
Member

Hi, the crisis support team have been wonderful this weekend, they have given me as much help as possible , i have not gone into my local hospital because i do not feel i can leave my home yet, my compulsions are all around my home so they want to take me away from it for some respite, my ocd has got so intense that my depression is chronic , i am not coping very well at all.
Tomorrow i have an appointment at the hospital to see a new psyciatric doctor who i dont know , whilst there they are going to show me the ward where they are hoping to treat my depression, they say i cannot be treated for my ocd until my depression is better, when i am improved they are going to refer me to a specialised hospital nearer my home for intense CBT therapy..... i always thought my OCD was at its worst but i was sadly wrong , since Christmas my OCD has took on different forms and has been unbearable, it has changed my personality also...sometimes i dont know myself anymore, but i suppose this is the depression that is causing this. I hope this post makes sence i'm on a high dose of medication at the moment.... i have to see what this doctor has to say tomorrow.
Hope your all o.k.
love brennie x

Sun Jun 21 2009 22:45:37 #
janegar
Member

Hi Brennie

Hope you are feeling better today. I know the feeling of deperation as I have it at the moment. I am sorry to hear that you were so low at the weekend and dont call yourself stupid, because you must be a really strong person to stop yourself. I feel really low too at the moment, I think a lot is to do with my age 45, my hormones seem to be all over the place which leaves me feeling desperate. Did you have trouble with the transition into menopause Brennie? I hope they can help with your depression and would love to hear from you soon.

Take care x
Janet x

Mon Jun 22 2009 16:31:16 #
brennie
Member

Janet, i am sorry you are going through a bad time , i know for sure and i remember it well ... when i was going through the menopause it was a particular bad time for me also ! going through the menopause is an awful time especially when you are suffering from mental health problems.
Eventually these bad times due to hormone changes will pass , are you receiving some help from your doctor for the menopause Janet, there is medication that can make it easier for you to cope with, i suppose you are already aware that depression can be a major factor with the menopause.
Keep in touch Janet,

love brennie x

Mon Jun 22 2009 21:43:55 #
stevieb
Member

Brennie, I am very sorry to hear that things have become so bad for you.

I'm also relieved that you didn't go through with taking the overdose, but that does not take guts, it takes guts to resist that temptation and to get on with your life. I really hope the hospital can help you to overcome your depression, and help you with your OCD, as you still have some years left in your life, and you deserve to enjoy them. This has all plaugued you for too long already. Its a shame it can't all simply go away.

Anyway, Bren, keep us posted on what is happening, but please stay strong, okay?

Best wishes,
Steve xx

Wed Jun 24 2009 11:25:22 #
brennie
Member

Hi All, just a quick update to let you know whats going on with me, i have been a day patient either at my home or at the crisis centre at my local mental hospital since Friday last week, i have been through a bad time lately and life seemed almost unbearable , but with all the care and attention i have been receiving from my mental health team i am coming out of my depression gradually.

At the moment it is being arranged for me to go into a hospital for intence CBT nearer my home , it is possible that i am going into the Priory very soon because it is much nearer to where i live, the authorities are trying to arrange this for me asap.

The psyciatrist has changed my medication , i am now taking Sertraline 100MG and also a typical antipsycotic drug called Risperidone , has anyone else taken risperidone ? and did it help ? because i have been worried about taking it, but it does seem to be helping me.

Steve, Jane, Swan, Arran, Tricia, Wombat, thanks for your messages.

love brennie x

Fri Jun 26 2009 0:21:52 #