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Cried my eyes out today, feel so utterly hopeless.

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  • Started 5 months ago by slogsweep
  • Latest reply from wannabefree
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  1. Hi Slog, Hi Mike... This is really interesting, bringing the word of acceptance in... If we can accept things instead of trying to control the world through 'magical thinking' then all of a sudden things get easier...
    It is difficult to do, but certainly good to try...
    Thank you for sharing...
    wannabe

    Thu Dec 22 2011 22:24:18 #
  2. I don't know about you Wannabe but I'm very scared, yet anxious to get going with this therapy. Maybe as we're at similar stages with regards to waiting time for CBT we can help each other through our CBT experience. A problem shared is a problem halved . It would mean a great deal to have friends who are suffering as I do to talk through what's going on.

    Big thank you again to Mike, I know it probably sounds like I'm gushing, but it was only October when I genuinely wanted to end my life. You've given me some real attainable hope for a decent quality of life again.

    Best wishes to the both of you,

    Slog

    Thu Dec 22 2011 22:43:20 #
  3. Hi Slog, yes, I feel very similar... It is scary, but yes, wanna get started so I can break the awful hold OCD has on me... The idea of acceptance is a good one... Relaxing into, and accepting how things could, might, or may not be anyway, feels a good thing, especially in the evening, my best time of the day... I'm certainly happy for us to go through this together, our CBT maybe coming at a similar time... I agree, having a friend to share the experience with is gonna be a massive help to us, and will even improve the outcome of treatment... Let's hope it happens soon... I too have had thoughts of ending my life during this past year, but thankfully I and you too have made it thus far, so hope is still there for a good recovery from this horrible illness... Meanwhile, lets have a relaxing Christmas, and let's have hope that 2012 will be a great year for us all...
    wannabe

    Thu Dec 22 2011 23:02:01 #
  4. Indeed Wannabe, you certainly deserve a relaxing Christmas period. I'm not chasing bright lights or excessive nights out like I used to. A quiet Christmas is all I want. I've bought the family extra presents this year to make up for their support while I've been horribly low so I'm looking forward to seeing them open their things.

    I hope you and your family have a lovely Christmas Wannabe, and that you continue to improve as you seem to almost every time you post. With any luck by the middle of next year we can both look at ourselves and realise that we've beaten a horrible disorder.

    Slog

    Thu Dec 22 2011 23:10:54 #
  5. I really hope both of you can get the help you need. OCD is not worth dying for. I had suicidal thoughts in 2010, and I thought my life was ending. It was torture. But I found the right type of therapy, and now I'm probably 90% back to the real me. The help is out there, it's just a matter of finding a good therapist, or even trying the therapy on your own. If you both are interested in trying ERP therapy, I HIGHLY recommend you read "Freedom from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" by Jon Grayson. He was my therapist for a couple months and he is an absolute expert in OCD. I strongly believe that his methods work way better than those of Dr. Schwartz. Please don't hesitate to ask any other questions you might have. I wish you both the very best, and remember, learning to live with uncertainty is the key. If the therapy makes you anxious at first, that's a GOOD sign - if it reassures you, that's a BAD sign cause that's just a temporary band-aid that will NOT reduce your obsessions. I hope trying ERP therapy is part of both of your New Year's resolutions!

    -Mike

    Fri Dec 23 2011 2:58:50 #
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    Hi Mike,

    re: your post above, I had a quick look around the internet and found this link for a website connected to Jon Grayson:

    http://www.ocdhelpdoc.com/

    It looks very interesting, so it might be of interest to other readers too.

    Thanks for all your excellent posts so far on this forum, Mike. It is great to hear positive, practical advice like yours, which will be incredibly helpful to many of the people on this forum.

    I think that you have excellent knowledge and insight into your experiences of OCD, and that suggests that Jon Grayson, or one of the other mental health professionals that you have worked with, was really on the ball.

    Thanks for sharing your knowledge and insights with the forum, Mike -- and please continue to do so as much as you can in 2012!

    And have a Merry Xmas!!!

    Fri Dec 23 2011 9:23:05 #
  7. The problem with that website is that he hasn't updated it in months! But there is occasionally some good advice there. Merry Xmas to you too!

    Fri Dec 23 2011 16:09:25 #
  8. Hi everyone, thank you for your kind words... It has been wonderful to read your posts too, Mike, a big welcome from me, if I haven't already done so...
    I'm just starting to get into the christmassy spirit now... I'm not going shopping tomorrow, I've had enough... If there is anything else it will have to wait until after Christmas now... I've got enough meds til at least new year, enough food in (I think) certainly enough chocolate and fruit, damn, I've just remembered we have no bananas in, oh well, we'll be okay... The electric will stay on, and we have a spare TV just in case... And loo rolls, plenty of those regardless of how much I try to use!
    wannabe

    Fri Dec 23 2011 22:17:38 #

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