OCD Action

brennie
Member

Hello friends, i am afraid to say that i cant talk on the forum for awhile because i cannot support anyone at the moment,
i am suffering from chronic depression and my OCD is quite severe.
At this present time i would just like to wish you ALL well , " i will be back when this old demon leaves me alone "

best wishes
brennie x

Mon Aug 4 2008 0:49:24 #
anxiousgal
Member

Hi brennie!

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling so good right now! I'll miss you but maybe a little break will do you good! Has anything happened recently to make you worse or is it just one of those things?

Luv Natasha

Mon Aug 4 2008 11:30:33 #
brennie
Member

Hiya Natasha, depression has got a hold of me right now and i cant shake it off, combined with OCD it feels i want to give up on everything and everyone.
I am feeling miserable also because today i should have been admitted to the Bethlam Royal on that unit for 12 weeks ... and guess what Natasha ? stupid old me has let them and myself down once again ! and why ? because i am too frightened too face my demon OCD thoughts , too frightened of treatment , too frightened of the unknown of what i will be like away from my home without my rituals / compulsions to keep me o.k. and safe, how contradictive can this sound when i want to be better.
I am hopeless and cant make an important decision at this crucial time in my life, i know how desperate i am and how lucky i am to be offered a place at this wonderful hospital , but why oh! why ? cant i stop being stupidly terrified of change when this is the mission i have been on for ages, why cant someone of 60yrs old make a decision.

love brennie x

Tue Aug 5 2008 11:15:19 #
DEAD!
Blocked

Hiya Brennie,

Don't worry about it, I'm sure you will get there sometime
I understand why though and I'm sure everyone else will

Take Care

Nicola

Tue Aug 5 2008 16:09:37 #
stevieb
Member

Hello Brennie

So sorry you're feeling so bad, and how ocd and depression are continuing to ruin your life.

Is there a particular reason why you're feeling so depressed, and/or why your ocd has got worse?
Maybe the two have gone hand-in-hand with this, as they often do.

Hope you soon feel better, but yes, a break may do you a lot of good.

Best wishes,
Steve xx

Tue Aug 5 2008 17:46:00 #
anxiousgal
Member

[quote="brennie":6jg3i7yk]Hiya Natasha, depression has got a hold of me right now and i cant shake it off, combined with OCD it feels i want to give up on everything and everyone.
I am feeling miserable also because today i should have been admitted to the Bethlam Royal on that unit for 12 weeks ... and guess what Natasha ? stupid old me has let them and myself down once again ! and why ? because i am too frightened too face my demon OCD thoughts , too frightened of treatment , too frightened of the unknown of what i will be like away from my home without my rituals / compulsions to keep me o.k. and safe, how contradictive can this sound when i want to be better.
I am hopeless and cant make an important decision at this crucial time in my life, i know how desperate i am and how lucky i am to be offered a place at this wonderful hospital , but why oh! why ? cant i stop being stupidly terrified of change when this is the mission i have been on for ages, why cant someone of 60yrs old make a decision.

love brennie x

Hi brennie!

Sorry I not been on here til today and hope you get to read this. I know exactly how you feel as I am feeling pretty low mysel frigh tnow!

I dont' think your stupid, brennie, if you aren't ready to go to the Bethlem it'd only be a waste of time. It reminds me of my being scared to go to uni the other year because of my OCD. I am pretty indecisive about big decisions my self right now brennie so your not alone with that! You can always go to Bethlem another year anyhow. I hope you feel better soon.

Luv Natasha
PS I am scared of change myself!

Wed Aug 6 2008 21:03:59 #
l00ser
Member

Hi Brennie,

Sorry to hear that you are having a bad time of it at the moment. Hang in there. OCD is a real deamon not to mention depression. These things seem to have taken alot of your life away from you. It's hard to resist the urges and it can be frightening prospect. I know how you feel.

I'll be thinking about you and hoping you have better times again soon.

L

Wed Aug 6 2008 22:25:38 #
mills
Member

Dear Brennie

So sorry to hear you are feeling bad. If there is anything I can do, please just let me know. You have been so good to me with advice for my daughter and myself, thank you so much.

Thanks to you and your advice she really has thought about going into the Priory and now God willing she will be going.

Take care Brennie and lots of love to you.

Lisa x

Wed Aug 6 2008 23:38:43 #
Unregistered

Dear Bren, I am so very sorry that you are feeling so awful. I don't think it's the time to go to the Bethlem whilst you are so depressed anyway, so try not to feel that you have let anyone down. Also, remember that the depression will pass, no matter how bad it is, it always does. I do wonder if part of the reason for the depression is stopping your Prozac, it may not have been doing that much for your OCD but it might have been helping your depression. Several people I know have stopped Prozac and it took a few weeks before they became depressed. I'm not sure whether you are back on a full dose, but it will take time to take effect again. You are not hopeless, you are ill and battling this wretched condition daily, often accompanied by depression. Few people would have coped as well as you have, Bren. Call me any time. I am thinking of you.

Love, Tricia x

Thu Aug 7 2008 9:37:32 #