as a few of you already knew ive recently moved house which was a stressful event but that over with now and im really settled in my new flat which is good. The problem how ever is as i dont have a job i feel my life is same day in day out. how do i cope without a job or any reason to get up of a day ? i feel numb at the moment i even told matt im not sure i love him because at the moment im not sure i love anything. i feel like rubbish at the mo regarding the job scene ive applied for many jobs to not even get replies is a kick in the teeth its knocking my already low confidence. matt said why dont i volunteer which is a great idea but it means using our car everyday which isnt cheap to run so in my eyes is counter productive. oh god why isnt life a bed of roses i just want something to make my life worth something, is it a job that makes it worth while ? because thats all im missing. I have a fantastic partner a nice home a nice car lovely mum and dad nice friends beautiful pets. So why arent I happy ? everyday is the same day i get up do some cleaning prepare tea and then i have nowt to do i dont want to burden others or ask matt for money to go out so i just potter around our flat reading internet and tv which ok is alright some times but everyday its getting me down. ive asked matt from some arty things so i can draw we have fantastic view here which im hoping will arrive today. Other than this how do you all cope day in day out ???
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