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Tue, 22 May 2012 15:58:25 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 <![CDATA[Search]]> q http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/search.php truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39927 Thu, 25 Mar 2010 21:57:34 +0000 truddles 39927@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":-)" class="bb_smilies" /> Great poem Bridget, see we are a talented bunch aren't we? <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":-)" class="bb_smilies" /> aishah on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39923 Thu, 25 Mar 2010 20:46:21 +0000 aishah 39923@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ The OCD Train by aishah » Sun Mar 12, 2006 11:42 pm Hi everyone, I've written this poem tonight for everyone on this forum. My mind is like a runaway train, Gaining speed forcefully as it thunders down the rickety track. Sometimes slowing to a steady pace, but othertimes its as if its a race. I tighten my grip and hold on tight as I prepare myself for another fight and wonder if I can manage another night. The train hurls me this way and that, as it derails going around the bend It is then that I ask myself "Will I ever mend?" Back on track now, ready for another day, but how long before this train runs out of steam as it ambles alongside a tranquil stream. The countryside setting is astounding, yet still my hearts pounding as I anticipate another day aboard this crazy runaway train. Surrounded by beauty, yet I still cant see it clearly, as I have a huge dark cloud hanging over my head and all I want is the security of my bed. The train gathers speed yet again, full steam ahead! The thoughts in my head filling me with dread. I just want to get off and stand firmly on the ground But the train wont stop and my heart still pounds. I want to be on the platform and just gaze ahead and not go through this torment in my head. At long last the train grinds unexpectedly to a holt, I jump off quickly and now I am just another blurry face in the crowd. Insignificant, nobody notices, but I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel nearing, Maybe, someday soon, I can stop forever fearing the obstacles that still may lay ahead, that trouble me relentlessly in my head. I hope the light when it comes, shines very brightly on each and everyone of us that suffers with this plight. Regards from Bridget Anonymous on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39910 Thu, 25 Mar 2010 14:02:17 +0000 Anonymous 39910@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ I love all these poems, they're all so true and amazing! Love it. Good wishes to everyone out there! truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39626 Wed, 17 Mar 2010 13:09:09 +0000 truddles 39626@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ I'm feeling down I'm feeling blue With no help What should I do? Blueskies on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39323 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 22:16:59 +0000 Blueskies 39323@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hey Truddles, I didn't notice this thread. All the poems are wonderful. And describes the personal meaning of each of you. I have really enjoyed each and every one of them. My contribution below was written a good few years ago for a mental health mag, I use to volunteer with. It's not a poem but describes my personal meaning, which also has that common theme of the bully. I love poetry so much and it has been a great help in my healing which is ongoing. ANXIETY AND CONTROL How many of us feel our Anxiety is like an internal bully? The healing journey of my recovery had a lot to do with control in my life. How we experience control is very personal to each of us. I really wanted to share here how having been brought up with controlling parents, had a major affect on my internal experience of what I call the thoughts of the internal bully. For most of my younger life, I suffered from low self-confidence, and always feeling as if I was never valued for just being me. Having been criticised for almost everything and never been praised, I always doubted anything I ever did. During my self development the one voice that bothered me the most and had the most impact on my progression were the thoughts of the intimidator, the thoughts that reminded me, ‘ I am not good enough, I’ll never amount to anything good, I don’t deserve to be happy etc…. The negative thoughts of a powerful emotional abuser… A bully!!! SELF-SABOTAGE AND THE EMOTIONAL BULLY Confronting the internal Bully Making positive steps and overcoming anxiety is very difficult when anxiety is mostly to do with control, controlling our feelings controlling others, feeling responsible for others, etc……… Who did you learn these feelings from? Moreover, how are you sabotaging your recovery? Ever tried to make a plan to do something positive, only to have those negative thoughts and feelings telling you to be afraid, stopping you from doing what you need to do to get back your independence and feel good about yourself. Every time you challenge your internal bully, you dis empower those beliefs and you replace them with your own sense of strength. In other words, in life, you would never let someone insult you, or put you down; you would defend yourself and stand up for yourself. The internal Bully has a knack of always controlling your thoughts and feelings, each time you want to do something better for yourself. Isn’t that what control is mostly all about, to stop you from thinking and believing in yourself? Creating doubts in your mind, trying to sabotage the good efforts you want to achieve by making you feel your not good enough, taking away your confidence etc……………..taking away your right to be and feel free from fear!! Think of this, a bully never picks on someone who they believe is stronger. By changing your beliefs, staying firm and positive, never backing down, no matter how hard it will be at first, you are letting go of control and anxiety, a bully you no longer need in your life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for sharing it's made my day!!! Pam truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-39321 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 21:13:19 +0000 truddles 39321@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Any more OCD poems especially from the members who have joined this year? truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-35771 Wed, 02 Dec 2009 13:41:08 +0000 truddles 35771@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ I did suggest that to head office when I wrote the original poem and have heard nought. I thought that not only would they help others especially new sufferers but could be used to raise money and awareness. Truddles nettlenoo on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but/page/2#post-35770 Wed, 02 Dec 2009 13:05:35 +0000 nettlenoo 35770@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ parvez thats a really good idea i like it. we could compile all out poems in a book of sorts for others to read. if you dont have ocd you dont quite understand it i think all these verse's are true to how we feel about ourself and the world around us it may be of help for others to understand too. i think wrigting poems or short story would be a great idea to dilute the worrisome thoughts away and it could be really enjoyable too. much love netti <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> Parvez Choudhry on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35755 Tue, 01 Dec 2009 14:29:21 +0000 Parvez Choudhry 35755@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ I composed that 3-part limerick about Glad over the weekend. It helped me to fight my OCD. Whenever I felt an urge to go over something in my mind to reassure myself about it, I diverted my concentration instead to writing that poem. Because I found it quite addictive, it distracted me for long enough from thinking about whatever I was worried about, so that when I went back to worry about it later on, my anxiety had subsided and the worrisome incident didn't seem to matter so much. I am going to remember and use this coping technique again. <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":-)" class="bb_smilies" /> truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35747 Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:36:12 +0000 truddles 35747@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ There you are glad - fame at last <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_exclaim.gif" title=":!:" class="bb_smilies" /> Anonymous on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35743 Mon, 30 Nov 2009 19:46:38 +0000 Anonymous 35743@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Dear Parvez. This is absolutely brilliant! I have never had a poem written about me before. I have copied and pasted it to my thoughts page and will print it out and sellotape it to my study wall. Thanks again Glad Parvez Choudhry on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35738 Mon, 30 Nov 2009 17:25:40 +0000 Parvez Choudhry 35738@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ An Ode to Glad In Devon a lady called Glad Feels dirty although she's clean clad. So she stands on her drain In the wind and the rain, And her neighbours all think she is mad. But dear Glad avoids giving in. She thinks to herself with a grin: "If I stand on this drain Again and again I'm sure in the end I shall win." In order to get CBT Our Glad has to pay a high fee. But it's money well spent 'Cos it keeps her intent On defeating her OCD. truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35716 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:53:35 +0000 truddles 35716@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Yes some good jokes and stories on it. Truddles nettlenoo on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35713 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:24:46 +0000 nettlenoo 35713@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ afternoon trudy no i dont go on coffee break forum is it any good ? truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35712 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 14:02:41 +0000 truddles 35712@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Netti, Do you ever go to the coffee break forum? Truddles nettlenoo on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35711 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 13:59:35 +0000 nettlenoo 35711@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ saying that not sure its sweet <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_redface.gif" title=":oops:" class="bb_smilies" /> nettlenoo on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35710 Sun, 29 Nov 2009 13:58:49 +0000 nettlenoo 35710@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ a short and sweet dittie overwhelming is ocd please oh please let me be free tortured soul is what i be ocd is overwhelming me i breath pure O i concentrate on C D is all together the horrid ocd stevieb on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35651 Wed, 25 Nov 2009 18:10:27 +0000 stevieb 35651@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Thanks for that, Jon. Great song and video. I love that girl's cat sweatshirt, and she's gorgeous too. lol jon on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35622 Tue, 24 Nov 2009 18:11:20 +0000 jon 35622@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ On this subject there is a song about OCD - see the video at this address: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=np3QLrHJmRA" rel="nofollow">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=np3QLrHJmRA</a> Anonymous on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35577 Sat, 21 Nov 2009 12:36:00 +0000 Anonymous 35577@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi everyone, Fantastic poetry, here is my effort, thought up during my statutory morning bath and hair wash. Also, please can I print out your poems to display at our OCD Awareness Day in Cornwall? Still having trouble with the avatar - has anyone else discovered Weemee on the net. If not give it a try. Joyce OCD I want to be free Of this vile monster inside me Uninvited you entered me Secretly invaded my family tree Right up through my ancestry. Cut through the line that was to be. OCD Get out of me Threatening my sanity Controlling my thoughts Obsessively. I will fight you OCD Break open your cage Imprisoning me Endlessly in misery. You will not stop me being me. For now I accept reluctantly A partnership in harmony Or you will overpower me. But I will resist you constantly. I know which thoughts are you not me Making me slave to anxiety My precious life wasted Compulsively. My loved ones suffering Needlessly. No sin deserves this destiny I am worth far more than you offer me Tormentor, torturer I will break free and one day you will be history OCD. Lumpy on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35576 Sat, 21 Nov 2009 01:18:22 +0000 Lumpy 35576@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Stevieb your poem was inspirational. I have been diagnosed with severe OCD and I am currently receiving wonderful support from Altrincham Priory. I find that if I engage in conversation during therapy sessions my fears subside a little. Almost as if the cognitive part of my brain rationalises the toxic thoughts. Thoughts become increasingly toxic the more I try to apply meaning to them as this is emotional. I must have a go at a poem next time I am on the forum Cheers Lumpy stevieb on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35546 Fri, 20 Nov 2009 00:27:54 +0000 stevieb 35546@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Thanks Truddles That's true, sufferers' OCD does vary tremendously, but its still OCD to us all, still a massive blight. But I tend to view OCD more as the beast in my poem, which makes it easier to see that it can be beaten. Best wishes, Steve truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35542 Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:43:59 +0000 truddles 35542@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Stevieb, That sums up the demon OCD brilliantly. Individually our OCD varies considerably and yet when we express it as a poem we all seem to be singing from the same hymn sheet. It also goes to show that OCD sufferers tend to be intelligent, articulate artistic souls. Thanks for sharing. Truddles stevieb on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35531 Thu, 19 Nov 2009 03:56:18 +0000 stevieb 35531@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hello Truddles, and everyone. As you clever people are giving your definitions of OCD in verse, I thought I'd have a go, too; It is our phantom in the night, And from our fear, it takes delight It is the burden of our day, The beast which always barres the way It is our stalker, crouching near, Which sniggers if we shed a tear, The mocking voice from deep within That tells us of our dreadful sin It’s the shadowed form which taints our dreams, So sanity breaks its weakened seams, The monster with no deepened lair, No chance for us to catch its glare Though in its blackened shade, we chill, But never lose our growing will, To feel the warm sun on our face, With thoughts at rest in every place But it’s still our phantom in the night, And from our fear, takes great delight, The tiring burden of our day, The beast which still stands in our way. fairymouse on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35529 Wed, 18 Nov 2009 23:45:27 +0000 fairymouse 35529@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Night Truddles ty & you sleep well too. Fairymouse truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35527 Wed, 18 Nov 2009 23:39:32 +0000 truddles 35527@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Same here, I'm going to try to get to bed this side of midnight so will say good night. I'm dead on my feet and that's when I have accidents. Sleep well. Truddles fairymouse on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35525 Wed, 18 Nov 2009 23:15:12 +0000 fairymouse 35525@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Thank you Truddles your poem was good too and very true of living with OCD also. It's helps to know that there are other people that are experiencing the same or similar things. Knowing that there are other people for you to confide in, talk to & can share your most inner thoughts and feelings with. I do still feel lonley in the sense of not really having anyone physically around me in the flesh. Does that make sense? Fairymouse truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35507 Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:45:05 +0000 truddles 35507@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ That was good,it's true OCD <img src="http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_evil.gif" title=":evil:" class="bb_smilies" /> is a bully and yes it adheres to you like a leech sucking the life out of you. Do you now feel that you're not completely alone now that you've got us? Best wishes Truddles fairymouse on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35505 Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:33:50 +0000 fairymouse 35505@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Everyones poems about how ocd affects them are good & are so true. Thought i would give it a try too. Kind of inspiring as Parvez said. OCD haunts me like a ghost it's the thing i want rid of the most Day in day out it's always there I can't seem to wash it out of my hair Attatched to me like a leech Sucking my blood as i sleep Wish there was a switch in my brain that could turn off this pain OCD sits on my shoulder like a massive boulder OCD, OCD, go away and don't come back another day. Fairymouse truddles on "I'm no poet but....." http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/im-no-poet-but#post-35490 Tue, 17 Nov 2009 22:14:24 +0000 truddles 35490@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Caps, Thanks for the email address, I've sent the poem as you suggested. That's a big step forward for me to do anything like that, suppose I'm afraid of being judged. Thanks for your encouragement. Truddles