http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression It's Time to Act. OCD Action provides support and information for people affected by Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Mon, 21 May 2012 15:37:42 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 q http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/search.php http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35380 Tue, 10 Nov 2009 21:47:48 +0000 Nimrod 35380@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>test post please ignore.</p> <p>Caps 20.47 10 Nov 09 </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35262 Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:03:05 +0000 Anonymous 35262@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Bren, I wasn&#x27;t very clear about that. My last assessment was in 2006, but last year Simon told me I could still go. It would mean another assessment, I expect. However, it&#x27;s not going to happen because my husband and daughter are as opposed as ever. I think the constant contamination 'exposure' with the mice has reinforced their view. I&#x27;m cracking up under the pressure. <br /> <br /> Love, Tricia. http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35254 Sat, 24 Oct 2009 17:46:55 +0000 brennie 35254@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Tricia, thats great news ! i was,nt aware that you had been for an assessment recently, i was aware you were considering inpatient care but that was many years ago, but hey thats great news if you have been accepted , when is it they are taking you Tricia ?<br /> <br /> love Brennie x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35243 Fri, 23 Oct 2009 14:34:01 +0000 Anonymous 35243@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Bren, I know you are waiting to hear from the Priory, and you are considering that because of the locality, but don&#x27;t forget the Bethlem will have you back, you know that. They will even take me. <br /> <br /> Love, Tricia. http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35240 Thu, 22 Oct 2009 23:36:45 +0000 brennie 35240@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Tricia, I have come to realise that i did not co-operate in the way they would have hoped for me ! i wish i had the opportunity to go back and face treatment once more .... i would put 100% into treatment, its a fantastic hospital ! its such a pity and shame that i unfortunately did not realise this at the time of my stay.<br /> love brennie x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35218 Wed, 21 Oct 2009 22:28:59 +0000 OCDLONELY 35218@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hello, I just wanted to say thank you all so much for your support and kind words. They mean a lot and are very much appreciated. I see my doctor tomorrow and I will talk about my eating problems mainly but will also discuss my depression and OCD. I know of a support group near me but have not felt ready to give it a try. I may soon. Thank you all again!<br /> <br /> Take care<br /> <br /> Daniel http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35216 Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:28:11 +0000 Anonymous 35216@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Bren, I agree, only 600 calories is harmful. I wonder if the Bethlem would take Daniel while he is so depressed and eating so little. I&#x27;m not saying he shouldn&#x27;t phone them and find out. I know it was this time last year you went there. I take it you feel differently about the unit than you did when you left there?<br /> <br /> Tricia x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35215 Wed, 21 Oct 2009 15:52:20 +0000 brennie 35215@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Daniel, how are you today ? i am thinking about you.<br /> <br /> Love Brennie x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35212 Wed, 21 Oct 2009 14:49:05 +0000 Anonymous 35212@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Dear Daniel, How did you get on this morning? I am thinking of you!<br /> <br /> Love, Tricia x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35207 Wed, 21 Oct 2009 00:39:52 +0000 lioness 35207@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Daniel,<br /> <br /> I know I don't know you very well like some of the others on here but it saddened me to read your post. Please don't give up, we all have a place in this world, you included. As Parvez said, maybe a support group would help you? Having freinds online does not mean they aren't true freinds, in fact they can be more so as Tricia said, some peoples freindships seem very superficial to me anyway. I can understand you wanting to have freinds you can go out and see, but it doesn't mean you never will. I really hope you can get some help, espcially with your eating which is really important. Its probably not helping the way you feel with the amount of calories you are having at the moment. Please keep posting here as we are all here to listen. Take care http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35204 Tue, 20 Oct 2009 15:32:04 +0000 brennie 35204@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Daniel, i am so sorry to here you are struggling so bad, i have known you for a long time now Dan so i remember last year you had the opportunity to go into the same hospital as i did ( Bethlam Royal ), why oh why did you not give it a try Dan ? who knows you might have been feeling a lot better with there experienced therapy, it is a marvelous hospital Dan so why dont you ring them and see if you could still be admitted... you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. You are a loving caring young man Daniel, you deserve all the normalities in life , you have been trying so hard lately to get out of the house , i think you could manage better if you were to re-consider inpatient care, i am concerned about your eating habits ...600 calories is harmful !!<br /> <br /> love brennie x http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35203 Tue, 20 Oct 2009 15:25:33 +0000 Nicola 35203@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hiya Daniel,<br /> <br /> I'm really sorry you're feeling like this and don't feel guilty for posting on here.<br /> <br /> You've been doing really well recently <!-- s:) --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s:) --><br /> <br /> Don't worry about not having a girlfriend - I haven't had a boyfriend since my ex and it looks like it's staying that way, but I'm sure you'll find someone when the time is right.<br /> <br /> We've been talking a lot recently and you've helped me by listening and I think you're great, you know I'd miss you and the stuff we talk about lol.<br /> <br /> I hope it goes well with the doctor <!-- s:) --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s:) --><br /> <br /> Take Care X<br /> <br /> Nicola http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35194 Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:02:02 +0000 Anonymous 35194@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ My dear Daniel, I have known you for several years. We have chatted about everything and in that time I have come to know you extremely well. A lady once told me I wasn&#x27;t a friend because she and I had only ever spoken on the phone and e-mailed. After eight years I remained an acquaintance! You know differently from that, and a psychologist once told me that people like us who hold deep and meaningful conversations by phone, letter or e-mail actually get to know each other better than those who you might meet up with regularly in a social environment.<br /> <br /> So, I believe I am qualified to say I know you very well. You are one of my closest friends. I admire qualities in you which are so very rare. You have a heart that is so large and you care more about other people than virtually anyone else I know. I cannot convince you that you are good looking and I probably won&#x27;t be able to convince you that you have an incredible personality either. But, I&#x27;ll keep trying and I&#x27;ll never give up!<br /> <br /> I desperately hope that your doctor will be able to help you with your eating, because I am sure that your depression is deepening because of a lack of nutrients. <br /> <br /> I am here whenever you need me. I and many others would be lost without you!<br /> <br /> Love, Tricia xx http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35193 Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:20:37 +0000 Parvez Choudhry 35193@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ Hi Daniel<br /> <br /> Please don't worry about coming on here and being all miserable. This forum is a place where you can discard your facemask with its plastic smile and just be honest amongst people who understand and care. There's no point pretending to us you're feeling fine if you aren't. If anyone is emotionally fragile enough to get upset by reading your post, then it's up to them to be cautious what they choose to read. <br /> <br /> I'm glad you called this post &quot;A wave of depression&quot; because it indicates you regard your current darkness as an emotional swing and not a change in your objective circumstances.<br /> <br /> Do you have a support group in your area, Daniel? Not necessarily for people with OCD specifically (though that would be ideal) but for anyone with mental health difficulties such as depression. I think it might be very helpful to meet others in the same boat as you - and there are plenty of them out there. I know you don't feel very gregarious at the moment but if you can force yourself to take the plunge, you may find yourself much more motivated about it after giving it a go. Do you need help in finding a local group?<br /> <br /> How did it go with the doctor yesterday?<br /> <br /> Ciao .... Parvez http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/a-wave-of-depression#post-35190 Tue, 20 Oct 2009 01:08:40 +0000 OCDLONELY 35190@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ I don't really want to come on hear and be all depressing and miserable because I know you are all suffering and I don't want to bring you down or make you worry. I have been trying so hard lately to get my life back on track after missing my teens and my twentys. I'm into my thirties now and I have nothing to show for it! I have no friends that I see or have met as all my friends I have met online. They mean the world to me but everyone needs a friend or friends that they actually see and spend time with. I have never had a relationship and the way I feel these days what woman/girl would want me? I want to have a family of my own but it seems impossible. As some of you know I have been going out for the first time in years. Not that far but it is so scary for me. I see danger and things that scare me with every step I take. I have walked well over 140 miles in 6 weeks. The thing is it's not really helping. I don't feel any better and I'm not achieving anything and nothing has changed. What is the point to all my effort and stress? I now have the eating disorder and mayby more to deal with and it's taking such a toll. I eat about 600 calories a day but I'm struggling to reach that now. I'm scared to eat. Scared to put on weight. Scared to lose the control I have. I think I'm severely depressed too. I couldn't cry for some time but this evening in my room alone I just broke down and couldn't stop like a wave just hit me. What is the point to any of this anymore? Do I even have a place on this earth? I doubt many would miss me and I know I haven't made any impact in the world. My family would get over it quickly and just move on. I don't like myself in anyway! I don't deserve any pity either because it's probably my own fault anyway. Mayby I'm just a horrible person and I'm getting what I deserve for all that I have done wrong? I just don't know anymore and I don't really care! I'm sorry to go on and hope I haven't upset anyone because that is the last thing I want to do. I feel guilty enough for complaining about my life and situation when I know so many people in the world are coping with and facing much worse than me! Take care<br /> <br /> Daniel