http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/tags/fear It's Time to Act. OCD Action provides support and information for people affected by Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Thu, 09 Feb 2012 04:01:57 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 q http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/search.php http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-61087 Sat, 10 Dec 2011 19:45:17 +0000 wannabefree 61087@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>It's amazing when we look back at what we come through as children... We are shaped by our experiences, but as you say, she is happy now, and that is good, very good... I too worry about other people, but then I never cease to be amazed at how some people cope with adversity... It is often easier to look after others than no 1, or should I say, seems to be, but it isn't really... It is hard work when we try to look after ourselves, so it can be an escape to put others first all the time... I did that in care work, I was fine til I burned out, and then I couldn't do the job anymore...<br /> Hang in there slog, try not to take too much notice of the negative newspapers and magazines...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-61032 Fri, 09 Dec 2011 23:51:54 +0000 slogsweep 61032@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanks mate, at least she is happy now. It really isn't easy wannabe, it's horrible how insignificant our suffering feels sometimes, and how selfish I feel. </p> <p>Then again, OCD is in the top 10 of the WHO's toughest diseases. </p> <p>It's like everywhere I go, every newspaper, every group of friends, every programme on TV and every damn article on the web is about the same horrible thing. </p> <p>I don't know. But on the plus side I've had a far better couple of days since then. </p> <p>Thanks guys, really appreciate any replies, as always if you're ever blue don't hesitate to message me I'll try my best.</p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-61018 Fri, 09 Dec 2011 21:45:24 +0000 wannabefree 61018@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi everyone, Slog, it ain't easy is it, this is a good idea from Citaloman, I'm gonna see if I can get the audiobook as well...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-61006 Fri, 09 Dec 2011 17:57:11 +0000 citaloman 61006@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Slog I didn't know you were in so much pain my friend. Please message me when you need to. I have thought the same as you many times, "what if this is my way of telling people about what I might have done" etc etc. </p> <p>Please let me know how you are whenever you need to. None of my real-world friends know I feel like this. That's why you and people on here are very special to me. </p> <p>Please listen to Clair Weekes audiobook on iTunes. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60815 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:46:53 +0000 slogsweep 60815@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hello Pepper, thanks for posting especially while I feel like this. I find it so terrifying, OCD. I've had it for a long time but I'm at the age where I'm venturing out on my own and facing new challenges. It's as if my OCD has picked up it's game recently to counter me trying to move up in the world. </p> <p>Glad you're doing well Wannabe, eventually even the smallest steps will turn into a hefty hike. You keep going, you're improving all the time so are clearly doing the right thing!</p> <p>Thank you both for your help. </p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60814 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:33:59 +0000 wannabefree 60814@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Pepper, good to hear from you again, you take it steady too... We are all worth it, as they say on TV...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60812 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:32:02 +0000 wannabefree 60812@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Not doing too bad at the mo, Slog... I've managed to cope with going on the bus today... I worry about the seats normally, but just went with it today, and felt better for it... My sense of humour had come back a bit when I was at day-centre, I then rode bus home again, and even though it was cold, I didn't worry about getting on the bus, so that's a bit forward for me, Small steps as they say...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60811 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:31:57 +0000 pepper 60811@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slogsweep,<br /> I'm sorry your having such a difficult time and I just wanted to echo what wannabe said. I know its hard to believe some times but if you were really as bad as you thought you were, you wouldn't be feeling like this.<br /> Try not to be too hard on yourself, I understand what you say about feeling you should be thinking about your friend right now, I was in a similar situation this week when we had a bereavement in the family and i was so angry at myself because I felt like my Ocd was taking over and getting in the way of me grieving (if that makes sense?), unfortunately it just doesn't work like that, if we could control it none of us would be on here. Take care. Pepper. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60809 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:26:56 +0000 slogsweep 60809@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>I try my best Wannabee. I guess the most positive thing about my OCD is a compulsion to help. Sometimes my generosity is used but I try to help and make people as happy as possible all of the time. I think they call it martyr's syndrome or something. I became an organ donor the other day which gave me a small self esteem boost, knowing that if my life is ruined by OCD or ends prematurely or alone, I can give someone a gift beyond anything material. </p> <p>Best wishes, how are you getting on?</p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60808 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:23:54 +0000 wannabefree 60808@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog, you're welcome.... You do the same for me, we're all in this together, and these forums have been a Godsend for me too... Thank you to you too...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60806 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:21:04 +0000 slogsweep 60806@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thank you Wannabe, I'm so pleased someone's got back to me you're a star. </p> <p>I was so upset. I talked quite openly about how issues like hers have affected my OCD and after calming down it has made me slightly better. I feel terrible for her but my OCD kicked into overdrive and I began to panic I'd done something bad again hearing about her pain. I'm all on my own at the moment which leaves me open to ruminate.</p> <p>Panic panic panic, worry worry worry.<br /> It's an OCD life &lt;img src=&quot;http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif&quot; title=&quot;:(&quot; class=&quot;bb_smilies&quot; /&gt; </p> <p>Thank you Wannabee, much appreciated you getting back to me. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60805 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 22:11:08 +0000 wannabefree 60805@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog... My turn to help you a bit... Firstly, if you were a bad person, then you wouldn't care whether you've hurt someone or not ... That makes you a good person by your own admission... If no one has come and complained to you, then you haven't upset them, cos the world we live in is very vindictive... To be fair, we cannot please everyone, it is impossible... We are nice people who care a lot more than maybe we should, about others... But reassurance doesn't work for us... You are a good person anyway, simply by being you, and it is obvious, from the support you give us on here... Sometimes we are better at helping others than ourselves, OCD is such a cruel illness... There is a poem called desiderata, worded by Les Crane, on youtube... The words are really good... Hang in there... This is a blip, you can bounce back...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60792 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 20:56:41 +0000 slogsweep 60792@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Love it too when people use OCD as some sort of fashionable tag on social networking sites, makes my blood boil :oops:. I would do anything to get rid of this dammed condition. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-serious-panic-attack#post-60787 Tue, 06 Dec 2011 20:16:30 +0000 slogsweep 60787@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi everyone, </p> <p>I've just found out that one of my closest friends was abused badly as a child. She's been through the worst imaginable kind of hell. As some of you know I've been suffering from intrusive thoughts and I was just getting better but now I'm as bad as I've ever been. </p> <p>I can't bear the thought that I've harmed someone. I'm so upset. What if I did something in the past that has hurt someone as much as her and I just can't remember. What if it was something I can remember and it was misinterpreted or I'll do something in the future. I can't bear this. I know I have OCD but what if I'm a bad person. I feel physically sick. I've tried reading threads on here that have calmed me before but it's not working. My compulsions have been going but my thoughts are still there as hard as I try not to think. What if the OCD is a facade? I should be thinking about her and how I can help but instead my damned OCD (or at least what I hope is OCD) is flooding my mind with terror.</p> <p>Sorry everyone,<br /> Help me someone, please, </p> <p>Slog &lt;img src=&quot;http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif&quot; title=&quot;:(&quot; class=&quot;bb_smilies&quot; /&gt; </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60503 Wed, 30 Nov 2011 21:38:17 +0000 wannabefree 60503@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog, Hi trudy, I'm glad things went okay today... I've been struggling a little today, but I'm also attempting to work with what you guys say on here to me too... This has been a lifesaver for me too, and I appreciate that too...<br /> My computer froze up last night so I'm only doing a little with it tonight... More tomorrow,<br /> wannbe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60492 Wed, 30 Nov 2011 18:53:01 +0000 Truddles 60492@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Well done, I know how hard it was for you to do that. The first step is always the hardest, but you've managed that and you now know that you've been accepted for CBT. So take time to enjoy yourself this evening &lt;img src=&quot;http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif&quot; title=&quot;:-)&quot; class=&quot;bb_smilies&quot; /&gt; </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60490 Wed, 30 Nov 2011 18:46:49 +0000 slogsweep 60490@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Today was thankfully better, special thanks to Wannabe. I saw a therapist and was assessed for CBT, I start in about 2 months or so. With the sheer amount of traumas and anxieties in my life in the last 8 months the therapist was not surprised I was suffering. It was highly emotional and tough at first, but I feel as if some of the gigantic weight on my shoulders has started to lift. </p> <p>Thank you, </p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60467 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 21:37:16 +0000 slogsweep 60467@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thank you so much for talking to me at the moment. I felt desperate and debated coming on here because I've posted quite often lately, but yet again someone's come through and stopped what was probably going to be another crack up. I wouldn't be able to face this assessment tomorrow without your help here. </p> <p>Sometimes though I feel as if I don't deserve treatment, that I am undeserving and less needy than other people who's recovery I might be holding back. </p> <p>I don;t know, I'm such a mess. </p> <p>Thank you though Wannabee, it's much appreciated honestly, </p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60466 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 21:15:56 +0000 wannabefree 60466@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Now that you have the medication, you are on your way at last<br /> Wannabe<br /> Sorry about the split message, my computer froze up! </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60462 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:54:07 +0000 wannabefree 60462@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog, yes, tiredness does contribute to our ability to cope... Medication just started takes a while to work, it takes time to get into the system, and sometimes it can make things seem a little more depressing at times, but that's the initial side effects... Stick with it, it is a good ssri, I'm still waiting for my upgrade of dose to work for me... I too feel very tired during the day... The OCD is exhausting, The tiredness makes it even more difficult to resist the compulsions to the intrusive thoughts... Now You have medication, th </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60461 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:45:30 +0000 slogsweep 60461@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thank you. Recovery from OCD seems like hurdles rather than a marathon, or a marathon with hurdles in it. It's just after you've been jumping or bumping into these same hurdles for so long it's going to start to get boring and exhausting. </p> <p>I haven't slept well these last few days either, could that be making me feel worse? 2 panic attacks in 2 days I've not had since just starting medication.</p> <p>Thanks,<br /> Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60460 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:27:04 +0000 wannabefree 60460@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog, you're welcome, you do the same for me... Please don't take the Prozac, more than it is prescribed for you, allow the three months supply to last three months,it will be worth it in the end, or so I keep telling myself too... CBT is a waiting game... There's always a waiting list for it, cos there are so few therapists, and so many people seeking help... This forum has been a lifesaver for me too... We're all working towards recovery together...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60455 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:13:16 +0000 slogsweep 60455@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>However good I feel beforehand, something in the media triggers me off. And I keep checking the news without even knowing it. It's like a compulsion. Without thinking I'll load it on my phone, then realize what I've done and close it asap. Same on the internet, the number of times I've written BBC in the search bar without thinking.</p> <p>Thank you Wannabe, I feel slightly better for reading that. Before I found this community I guarantee that I'd be lying in bed like this until tomorrow morning, then been too scared to get up again, and the vicious cycle would begin. </p> <p>It's so tiring having to fight each attack off though, just when I think I'm starting to make progress. Something like this happens and I see the three months' worth of Prozac on my desk and I just think I don't think I can go that long. Who knows when or if I'll get CBT or if I'll be too scared for it to work. I wish I could go a day without feeling scared, real fear. </p> <p>Thank you again though, really appreciate posts at a time like this</p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60452 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 20:01:05 +0000 wannabefree 60452@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Slog, It is the OCD, definitely, most definitely the OCD... You offer so much help to people like me on here, there's no way this anything but the OCD, and now it is our turn to help you...<br /> I've long since stopped having a newspaper, cos all they print is bad news... I even find myself backchatting the hadlines on magazines when I see them in shops... It is a sad fact of life that bad news sells, although I wonder why, cos it won't do anyone any good reading negative stuff... It's the same with the sooap operas on telly... I know that reassurance doesn't work for us OCD sufferers, but to know that what you are experiencing is OCD, for sure, just has to be said... Hang in there Slog, this will pass, you've got through this before, and can do it again...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/help-having-a-panic-attack#post-60449 Tue, 29 Nov 2011 19:49:54 +0000 slogsweep 60449@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi everyone, </p> <p>I've gone and done it again, I made the mistake of reading a paper. I'm panicking like mad. I thought it might help me recover and it was only a local paper, but no. A story has set off my fears and thoughts again. I'm burning up, tight-chested, nervous coughing and have crawled beneath my duvet. Someone please tell me this is the OCD and I'm not monstrous. Every time I've had a setback or a relapse it's the blasted media. I'm sick of this and I'm so tired. I have a CBT assessment tomorrow and I don't know if I can even leave my room, let alone the house. Absolutely terrified yet again. Please offer any advice you can I'd appreciate it so much.</p> <p>Thank you</p> <p>Slog </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/poor-insight-ocd-does-anyone-have-any-information#post-60327 Sun, 27 Nov 2011 11:20:42 +0000 wannabefree 60327@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Okay, I'm back again now... Last night was terrible cos I was so tired... OCD makes things difficult anyway, but worse when your brain badly needs a rest...<br /> I have worries about checking our car... Need to make sure it is all all right... I never used to care, I used to rebuild engines and stuff like that, hands filthy, clothes filthy, and it didn't matter, but now, with the OCD, even touching door handles to get in the car is an effort, and also about the seats... I worry too, Tess, about seats... Logically they must be okay, cos everyone sits down, they have to, and yet those without OCD can manage without any thought entering their heads... Public loos I manage reasonably well with, but I put that down to actually doing that CBT alongside the therapist some years ago... It doesn't always work, I still have triggers that I find so difficult to cope with, my anxiety goes off the scale and I feel physically almost sick... As you say Jon, the only way is to just carry on, until the anxiety subsides... I just wish it happened quicker, that's all!<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/poor-insight-ocd-does-anyone-have-any-information#post-60316 Sat, 26 Nov 2011 21:40:04 +0000 wannabefree 60316@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>I agree, even though it is difficult, I find it worse when I'm tired too...<br /> I'm gonna crash out now... Will chat again tomorrow...<br /> wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/poor-insight-ocd-does-anyone-have-any-information#post-60306 Sat, 26 Nov 2011 18:36:13 +0000 jon 60306@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Tess, I agree with you 100% - actually yesterday I had a similar experience to yours, I had a spike or panic attack re my current OCD issues which blew my current ongoing obsession out of the water - but I just held tough and today it has faded and my outlook is more positive. I have been at this stage before but somehow I keep getting knocked back. Anyway, that's the thing about this, every time it knocks us down we just have to get up again and carry on. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/poor-insight-ocd-does-anyone-have-any-information#post-60239 Thu, 24 Nov 2011 17:28:39 +0000 Tess 60239@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Jon<br /> We are both on the same wavelength and I would go further and say that for someone with severe OCD recovery is ongoing and can even become part of your everyday life without you even realising. For example driving home from the library this afternoon with my husband I suddenly had a thought out of the blue flash in an instant through my mind, it was about whether the computer chair my husband had sat on in the library had been horribly contaminated and my pulse rate shot up with a surge of adrenalin, so I just breathed deeply until the panic subsided. I didn't try to rationalise it at the time, thinking about it now why didn't I panic about the chair I had sat on, what harm could possibly come from sitting on a chair anyway - but I just thought silly fool and waited for the moment to pass. I don't expect to ever be completely free of these surges of anxiety but as time goes on I think I learn how to deal with them better which is what I mean by ongoing recovery. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/poor-insight-ocd-does-anyone-have-any-information#post-60238 Thu, 24 Nov 2011 15:28:11 +0000 jon 60238@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Tess, thank you for your interesting and informative reply.<br /> The problem for me is that I have many and varied obsessions. So I would have to go through the 'cold turkey' phase for each and every one, which could take forever. So I have to find another solution, because its got complicated.<br /> The term 'recovery' too I think is subjective, because it depends on where you are starting from. If you have mild OCD then maybe you can recover to being almost cured, but if your OCD is severe then recovery might be getting to a place where, as you say, your life is happier and more useful.<br /> Take Care,<br /> Jon </p>