http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/tags/depression It's Time to Act. OCD Action provides support and information for people affected by Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Mon, 21 May 2012 15:12:28 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 q http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/search.php http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67653 Sun, 20 May 2012 22:15:30 +0000 firkin 67653@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Crazybird, I found I did get more anxious but only for around a week, and the relief I got after was well worth it, if it weren't for them, I would have had many more months, even years of anxiety, it was definitely short term pain for long term gain. I can see why you worry though but I found the medication really just returned me to normal, it didn't have any outrageous effects of any kind apart form a little more agitation at first. I'm terrified of drinking too as alcohol reduces inhibitions and I fear I'll do something wrong...also the next day I always worry what if I have, even if I remember everything clearly and know I haven't...just not worth it for something that's not even necessary or healthy! I've always been interested in hypnotherapy even though I know it's not recommended by the professionals for OCD. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67651 Sun, 20 May 2012 21:44:49 +0000 sadbird 67651@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Firkin<br /> I am completely medication phobic-I read on the packet once they can make anxiety worse for a while and that did it!Mind you I darent drink either-so scared of feeling drowsy too-I can never let myself sleep in the day either.Someone suggested hypnotherapy may help but I darent do that either!<br /> Leapfrog-tell someone at work-it really helps-my colleagues all know and once you realise you dont have to put a face on its so much better.<br /> The effort of putting a face is so stressful it makes OCD worse I think.<br /> Dont jeopardise your job-its will be a disaster if you lose it-weekends and evenings are a nightmare-imagine having all day everyday with nothing to take your mind off things-I'm sure like me OCD follows you to work but it does lessen ever so slightly when you're busy and around people<br /> Wannabe-I hope you can soon feel strong enough to look for work soon-it will really help<br /> The most important thing we all need to realise is though rather than work to take our minds off things we have to conquer the OCD-we have to think the thoughts and not let them affect us/face the issues without the compulsion to sort them etc etc<br /> That way we can start to enjoy our free time-weekends and evenings are the things 'normal' people look forward to-we all deserve that<br /> Lets all keep striving to be 'normal'<br /> Who cares about the paint on my wall!!<br /> Crazybird </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67647 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:38:09 +0000 wannabefree 67647@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog, It may be best if you don't take a sleeping tablet tonight then, cos if it makes you late for work it will be counter-productive... Do you have routine at work you can lose yourself in? If so, at least that gets you through the day... And you still have a few diazepam to reduce the fear a bit... Hope this helps a bit... It is still very early days for the fluoxetine...<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67646 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:32:24 +0000 firkin 67646@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hiya LeapFrog</p> <p>Haven't been on here for a couple of days as I was moving but just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you're feeling a bit better from the diazepam. Don't lose hope, you were only on a very low dose of fluoxetine before and the new dose hasn't had a chance to kick in yet. You can go right up to 60 mg, if not, something else will help. </p> <p>Hi Crazybird</p> <p>Sorry you're feeling so awful, I know it doesn't always help when people say this but it will pass, and I'm not just saying that, it really will. How come you can't take tablets? They might really help. I got well after feeling the way you describe after going on meds. I have relapsed but only years later due to some bad circumstances and ignoring the early warning signs.</p> <p>x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67645 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:30:38 +0000 kissthefrog 67645@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Getting harder not to let the mask slip at work. No idea if I will be up on time after sleeping pill never taken them on a work night before, but was hyperventilating and couldn't calm down so it seemed like a good plan. x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67644 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:25:04 +0000 wannabefree 67644@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog, that's the same dosage as me, but it could take a while to help, so do give it time, definitely... Are you going to work tomorrow? Do you find things easier at work than at home? I guess if your job is fairly busy the intrusive thoughts get pushed away for a while... That's the reason I wish I could hold down a job... The thing is I'm nowhere near ready to work yet, but maybe after therapy, I don't know yet... If you have a sleeping tablet tonight do you manage to wake early enough to get to work?<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67642 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:18:14 +0000 kissthefrog 67642@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi crazy bird thanku for your post, so sorry you're in similar place wudnt wish this feeling on my worst enemy. I know yr right I wudnt want to upset my partner just don't know how to be any more.<br /> Wannabe it only got upped on Friday on 40mg fluoxetine now so I know it needs time. Every minute is a struggle tho. Thanku for yr support it means a lot </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67641 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:10:24 +0000 wannabefree 67641@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Crazy bird, Hi Leapfrog, I'm not sure what to say... It isn't easy is it? I know I keep saying that, but it is true... It isn't easy, though I wish so much that it was... Will things be easier whn you get to work tomorrow? Is your work sufficient to take your mind off things? I'm now wondering if you're even on the right medicine, or is it so that the way you feel right now is the awkward side effects of the medication, coming before the therapeutic ones kick in... How long have you been on the new dosage? It isn't long is it I don't think...<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed/page/2#post-67640 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:08:01 +0000 sadbird 67640@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog and everyone else out there having a bad time<br /> I havent posted for a while as I was on holiday-a holiday completely ruined by my OCD.<br /> As you are aware I've been resisting the urge to remove that paint but the compulsion to do something about it is still in my head 24/7-together with everything else that I am stressing about.<br /> I used to love my home and garden and now its the worst possible place for me to be and it doesnt stop there-when I go out my issues stay in my head all the time-I cant escape-like you Leapfrog I just want it all to end<br /> I feel so depressed-everyone keeps saying the weather is going to get better this week but i know the clouds will remain in my head<br /> I was so bad on Friday I called my gp but what can he do?<br /> I darent take tablets-the crisis team dont do CBT and I have another 5 months to wait for my psychology appointment.<br /> I fully understand how you feel Leapfrog but lets try to keep each other going-if we did something silly OCD will have won-and what about our partners?<br /> I didnt know it was possible to cry so much </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67639 Sun, 20 May 2012 20:03:54 +0000 kissthefrog 67639@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Took a sleeping pill. Rest til it all starts again tomorrow. Sorry again for negative posts. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67638 Sun, 20 May 2012 19:41:06 +0000 kissthefrog 67638@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Wish they were. Sorry wannabe. Can't go on like this. Just phoned crisis team didn't really help. Want everything to stop now. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67637 Sun, 20 May 2012 18:47:59 +0000 wannabefree 67637@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Trudy and Chas, Hi Leapfrog... Here's hoping things are a little easier this evening? I really do hope so...<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67617 Sun, 20 May 2012 12:03:39 +0000 truddles 67617@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>When we're depressed or over anxious then we do tend to worry about everything. And I've come to learn that it's a waste of our energy as everything can manage quite nicely without us. We need to divert those energies into looking after our selves and in these instances you have to be your top priority.<br /> Try and get involved in something that you enjoy this weekend and time will then pass quicker and before you know it the weekend will be over.<br /> PM me if you need a shoulder to cry on &lt;img src=&quot;http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif&quot; title=&quot;:-)&quot; class=&quot;bb_smilies&quot; /&gt; </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67615 Sun, 20 May 2012 11:09:54 +0000 kissthefrog 67615@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanks truddles. Will see how I go today. Worried about everything at the mo. appreciate the support you and everyone are giving me. This is like my lifeline x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67613 Sun, 20 May 2012 10:47:25 +0000 truddles 67613@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi LeapFrog,</p> <p>Try to keep yourself occupied today, just as you would when you're at work, as it's when we're not occupied that OCD takes the opportunity to jump in and take over.<br /> The Crisis Team is part of the CMHT and so need to know who you are in order to help. Part of their job is to liaise with the members of your Care Team such as your psychiatrist and therapist to let them know that you're in crisis in order to get you the most appropriate treatment. Like the rest of those that care for you they are there to help you and not there to judge you. </p> <p>I know several members myself included who were getting absolutely nowhere with the CMHT until the Crisis Team stepped in. They contacted my Psychiatrist and were able to emphasise far better than I could that things were bad and that I needed urgent help. Help which I finally got thanks to them. Generally they are able to give you a little more time than the others, so please don't be afraid of contacting them as they are there to help you when you're in crisis. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67611 Sun, 20 May 2012 08:38:15 +0000 kissthefrog 67611@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanks chas will try. Another day to get through but only 4 diazepam left. Got to work out a way of getting through today without having to take one. Do the crisis team keep your number when you call? Is it totally anonymous? Worried what they mite say x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67609 Sat, 19 May 2012 23:21:45 +0000 chaschas 67609@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog,</p> <p>I hope you start to feel better soon - you deserve to, we all do on here. I have numbers for my local crisis team which is a comfort coz sometimes I get really down - don't be afraid to call them, they're there for a good reason. Try to relax a little if you can - pop some music on or watch something funny. And at weekends try to keep yourself as occupied as you can as it will help you &lt;img src=&quot;http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif&quot; title=&quot;:-)&quot; class=&quot;bb_smilies&quot; /&gt; <br /> Goodnite</p> <p>Chas </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67608 Sat, 19 May 2012 23:18:25 +0000 kissthefrog 67608@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanku. Posting on here is the only thing keeping me going some days everyone so supportive. Just took a sleeping pill so hopefully will get a rest now. Still little bit woozy from the diazepam but hey. See how things go. I'm still here. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67603 Sat, 19 May 2012 22:01:14 +0000 truddles 67603@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Don't hesitate to use the number that he gave you if you need to.</p> <p>You don't need to apologise for anything that you've said, the forum is here to give people a place to vent their feelings and get support from others. And it's good that you feel able to express your feelings. No one should ever feel that they have to apologise for letting others know how miserable they feel. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67602 Sat, 19 May 2012 21:37:34 +0000 kissthefrog 67602@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanks truddles. Did tell therapist on Friday. Think he was worried about me. He phoned me after and gave me a number for the crisis team. Like to think wudnt do anything but when I get in a state I don't know any more. Sorry to be saying horrible things it's just how I feel. Wud hate my partner to see these posts tho x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67599 Sat, 19 May 2012 21:00:02 +0000 truddles 67599@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>LeapFrog,</p> <p>Please stop putting yourself down. Of course there's some special about you, we all have special qualities, one of your special qualities is that even when you're feeling really low like you are now you still have time for others.</p> <p>You're really depressed at the moment and so life probably does seem as you describe, but it isn't. It's neither pathetic, pointless or worth it and once the medication starts to take effect you'll be able to see that.</p> <p>You need to speak to your therapist and make sure he knows that you self harm and that the weekends are particularly bad for you. That way he'll be able to help you to put in place some coping strategies. </p> <p>Many of us on the forum have been through really low patches like the one that you're going through but by using the forum for support we've all managed to ride the storm and you will too.</p> <p>PM me if you need to talk, but if things are really bad contact your GP or go to A&amp;E. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67598 Sat, 19 May 2012 20:42:49 +0000 kissthefrog 67598@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Thanks wannabe. Sorry to hear you're in a bad place too. Nothing special about me. Pathetic worthless pointless life </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67597 Sat, 19 May 2012 20:22:47 +0000 wannabefree 67597@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog, please stay safe... You won't maybe think it now, but you are amazing, special, unique... You've been an inspiration for me on here, and I value the support you have given us on here... It needs to continue, so I'm posting now... I know you are in a dark place right now, and to be honest, me too... We have to keep fighting on... There will be a point to all this, although I don't know what it is, even for myself... But we have to fight on as best we can... This OCD is an enemy and we have to treat it as such.. It is awful I know... But please don't give up... This is a journey, and you've got us on here for support... Take it real steady... More later...<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67596 Sat, 19 May 2012 19:42:32 +0000 kissthefrog 67596@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi wannabe and truddles, thanku for your messages. Didn't resist the urge but didn't do anything too bad as am still here. It has to be a particular type of pain or it doesn't work so alt methods not good for me. Took a diazepam so that helped. Don't think doctor knows I still have some. Asked for something to get me through weekends but she sed no. Will have a sleeping pill in a bit. Don't want to not see the therapist I have now. I know the point is to function without him eventually but that's not going to happen. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67589 Sat, 19 May 2012 13:46:51 +0000 truddles 67589@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi LeapFrog,</p> <p>Sorry to hear that you're having such a bad time. I hope that you managed to resist picking up the knife. I mentioned this site <a href="http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/mentalhealthinfo/problems/depression/self-harm.aspx">Self Harm</a> in another of your threads. Have another look at it, as it shows things that you can do to help yourself, including suggestions for ways of giving yourself pain you need from self harming without harming yourself.</p> <p>You need to get back to your GP and let him know that you are self harming, this should help him to direct you to the most appropriate therapist, one that can help with both the OCD and Self Harm. If you can't tell him then write it down.</p> <p>If you're used to being busy at work surrounded by others then it's not easy at the weekend. Try to treat it as if you were at work - set yourself a timetable to ensure that you keep yourself occupied. OCD relishes boredom and it doesn't take it long to butt in when we're not busy.</p> <p>I'm around all week end if you need to talk. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67586 Sat, 19 May 2012 11:40:01 +0000 wannabefree 67586@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Hi Leapfrog... This isn't easy is it? I'm wondering what to say to comfort you, but want to comfort you... I wish I had the words... We are in this together, and ther OCD is being an absolute pig again... I've been off the site for a couple of days so have missed what has been happening... There has to be some sort of hope... Will post again soon...<br /> Wannabe </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67585 Sat, 19 May 2012 11:02:07 +0000 kissthefrog 67585@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Looking for a reason not to pick up the knife on the table. I don't think I want to but the urge is hard to ignore </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67584 Sat, 19 May 2012 10:04:14 +0000 kissthefrog 67584@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>Therapist sed I will need more sessions than he can offer and at the moment all we are doing every week is risk management to get me from one session to the next. Not a good day today. Mite take a diazepam to get me through coz I've got some left from my meltdown the other week x </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67579 Fri, 18 May 2012 23:01:06 +0000 firkin 67579@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>It will take a while for the upped dose of the meds to kick in and when doses get upped they do tend to make you feel worse for a bit as they can give you some more anxiety. Give it a couple of weeks and you should feel a bit better, if not I'm sure they can find you something that will work. There are lots of options. It's good that you're seeing the doctor and therapist every week, you can tell them when you're feeling really down and when you can't talk to them, you can post on here and can you talk to your partner? Just as long as you know you don't have to be alone with this. </p> <p>How come the therapist is referring you up? Is there someone more specialised available? It seems a shame if he's helping you and you have a rapport with him. </p> http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/topic/very-depressed#post-67578 Fri, 18 May 2012 22:48:21 +0000 kissthefrog 67578@http://www.ocdaction.org.uk/forums/ <p>I honestly don't know wot more they can do, they've upped my meds again today and am seeing doctor and therapist every week. It's just me I'm wrong all the time and can't fix it. Wish I cud keep my therapist in my pocket lol. He is referring me up but worried about seeing someone different to him because he has been so lovely. Feels very strange to be telling someone details of my life that I don't tell anyone and then suddenly one day he won't be there for me any more. Kind of freaking me out. </p>