15 May 2015 - 19:50
I was wondering if anyone had experienced similar feelings or patterns and if anyone had any advice. My OCD has gradually got worse over the years and I now find myself obsessively taking notes about events or thoughts that I am having, for fear or forgetting them and feeling this need to try and remember and hang on to everything. I find that it affects my enjoyment of what should be enjoyable events because my head is swimming with thoughts and I have this need to make a note of what I am thinking or something someone has said. I really don't know what to do. I know it's completely irrational but it's so hard to stop... Sometimes after the even and it could be something really boring like where I was standing while waiting for a friend at the station or saying goodbye, and I find myself reliving it and going over and over non-events and getting very anxious and cross at self in the process.
If anyone had any words of wisdom or similar experiences I'd be so grateful. I feel alone and so abnormal, I just wish I could enjoy things the same way other people do...