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Ocean’s Hell

They tell me it is common, so why do I feel so alone?
They tell me I’m fine, so why has my world turned upside down?
They tell me to just be, but I don’t know where to be, for which world do I inhabit? Where does fantasy end and reality begin?
I want to surrender to it, but I can’t stop the fight.
I feel like I am swimming against the tide
I swim under the blazing sun, the piercing winds, and the blinding snowfall
I swim morning, noon and night
There is Paradise Island in the distance and everyone is on it.
I am swimming towards it, I’ve been swimming towards it, but the tide has been pulling me the other way.
How long must the tide pull me away, before I go under?

spfighting, November 2, 2011

One response to “Ocean’s Hell”

soapdodger says:

March 18, 2012 at 11:06 pm

I just read your poem and it describes exactly how I feel sometimes. Thank you!

Having OCD makes you feel like you live your life in a bubble or a goldfish bowl, with all your thoughts really tightly internalised. I can find it so hard to break out of my own thoughts sometimes, almost impossible. And that can make life seem a bit weird.

I have had some treatment and was told OCD is a total addiction, much like alcohol or drugs. It’s like an itch that you just want to keep scratching because it feels good. Nowadays I try to be more relaxed and deal with anxiety better. But I sometimes feel like being pulled back in also.

Thanks again for the poem, it really made my day.